The rebellious nerd secrets

Ch 12: accepting

" We're about to leave now " my mom once again informed

"Can your give me five more minutes " I asked not wanting to leave the house just yet.

" We might as well stay home " she suggested which in my opinion was a great idea

" Is that a choice or you're just messing with our mind "

" Let's get moving " she yelled hushing us out of the danm house

' it won't be as bad as you think. ' I whispered to myself as I walked out of the house

be rude

be sarcastic

Be disrespectful

' then he'll come to his senses that we are not the perfect family for him. Then everything will be back to normal ' I added while taking the front seat of the car

The ride was very awkward. Nobody seems to have acknowledge each other existence except for my mom of course who kept on firing question after question.

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" Because seven eight nine " he said laughing gaining a death glare from me on the process

" That's hilarious " my mom said

" So funny " I stated not even bothered hiding my lack of interest.

" Where are you going " my mom questioned as I stand up from the table

"Am I like a prisoner to you now Ms. Silver ?" I asked frustrated " Would it be okay for me to use the bathroom or would u like to accompany me or would that be a problem also " I added Rolling my eyes

' also ' I heard her silently question

" like everything else is already " Jacob annoyingly added which made him get the ' you-better-shut-it ' look from mom

Being in the bathroom made me feel calm. I guess it's because I wasn't near John no more. If it wasn't for the fact that I didn't want him to be part of our family, I would've probably like him.

' how's your day going by so far ' I texted Jasmine and Kayla hoping they're having less fun than I am

Oh how I hate my life. Nothing good ever happen to me no more. It doesn't seems like it will either, but somehow I can't stop but putting a smile on my face.

" Nerly, I know you're in here " I heard my mom desperately said behind the bathroom door " please come out " she whispered. although she didn't say anything after, her breathing answered my questions.

She still haven't left him or the bathroom and she won't be either for a while.

" How's it going " she added " I know what you're dealing with and I know it's not easy but it's for the best believe me " she stated

" Yeah right " I said about to head back to our table but she stopped me before I had the chance to

" Grandpa Dylan isn't your real grandpa you may somewhat say " she spoke while seating on one of the sink " he's been my step dad since I was 13 " she added , surprised was writing all over my face.

" Why didn't you tell me about that " I asked quietly feeling a little betrayed.

" Because I couldn't find the perfect "

" Time . spill it " I cut her off

" What a déjà-vu right " she said trying to lighten up the situation but I didn't even smile " fine. the more you grow up, the harder it became for us to spilled the truth. We all know you're not good at dealing with changes and I didn't want to ruin you guys relationship over something like that " she honestly said

" What happened to your real dad then, my real grandpa " I asked feeling curious

" He's around here somewhere " she bluntly said " okay the truth right " she asked making me nodded

" My dad died when I was around 10 because of my stubbornness. It was also the day of my best friend birthday. They were having a sleep over party at her house but my parents told me I wasn't allowed to go also. I was mad, so I did something I wish I could take back even now. I run away . As I saw him catching up on me, I carelessly cross out the street not paying any attention to the road " she continued telling me the story while tears started forming in her eyes

" I get it mom " I said not wanting to know anymore

" As the yelling get closer, I went faster . unfortunately, I wasn't fast enough. if it wasn't for him, I wouldn't have been standing here either. He was hit by a truck trying to save his little angel from a mess she created in the first place. Since then I wasn't considered a little angel no more. The whole school knew me as the girl that killed her dad, I lost all my friend and even the one that was suppose to be there for me"

" Can we stop now " I begged " you should've told me that before "

" By crying about how miserable my life is, how I'm about to lose my job and I barely can pay the rent and also how I'm lonely and all . no thank you , I'm not that type of person " she added cleaning her face up a little trying to look more presentable

" Well, I'm glad we have something in common then being stubborn " I joke making her looked at me questionably " i'll give him a chance only because I love you though "

With that, we headed back to our table acting like nothing happen in there.

" Where have you been? " John asked

" I honestly thought you were being flush down the toilet " Jacob joked making us laugh

" Don't worry, it will be on my to do list for you little bro " I added smiling evilly at him.

Honestly, it wasn't a bad dinner like I excepted it to be and maybe , I need to give people more chances in the future no more how hard it might be