𝚃𝚘𝚔𝚢𝚘 𝚁𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚗𝚐𝚎𝚛𝚜 𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚌𝚊𝚗𝚘𝚗𝚜

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Monday

-Got fat shamed/don't remember 

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Tuesday

My mom asked me why am I in tutoring? Rn 

What are you talking about?

We end up having this huge argument about how I'm feeling math mind you I have an 86

And how I was  in life where I want to be in the next five years

And how I'm "being aimless about my life"

IM 12 TF

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Wednesday 

Had a huge fight with my mom about my grades

Also, about the fact, I had to make this paper of what I want to do in five years forgot that I had to do it but remembered I have to do it after school schedule

Spoiler alert: she got mad

Turned into a what do you want to do in five years debate (I'm depressed and suicidal but can manage it to the point where people don't notice)

Too scared to tell her that I'm depressed and sewerslidal 

Starts yelling to me about how I'm lazy and that I've changed 

Try to explain to her without saying the word depression that I'm depressed

Then she said how I have a spark, no motivation

she's kind of right though tbh I don't have any motivation in my interests I HATE THE FACT THAT SHE KINDA RIGHT 

I show her my after school schedule that I made

Then she says that I have no interest and even the stuff they take interesting I don't take initiative in

For context I want to be a mangka author when I grow up

Mind you I have spent sleepless hours, trying to  enhance my drawing skills in writing skills

That was it really made me upset. The fact that I try my best in the one area that brings me joy and not only have a lost interest in it but now she's getting mad. I don't put any initiative.

Then she goes on about how I need to start reading on the bus go pick up a book and read on the bus

Then she goes on about. I don't care that people make fun of you for reading just read.

And I say I'm being made fun of and you don't care I don't care if it's about reading or not so you're being you're letting me get made fun of and you don't care

And she's like no because they're stupid and you're in your feelings right now, so I don't know why you're talking

Then she asked if I enjoy anything

Then, when I finally come out to the fact thatI don't like anything about being at school, she says let me pull you out of school then I said I don't like anything about being at home being without my technology makes me crazy (I couldn't say that dealing with mom at home makes me crazy)

Do you know what she says?...

GET OVER AND GET YOURSELF TOGETHER YOU LIVE IN A FIRST WORLD COUNTRY EVERYTHING IS AFFORDED TO YOU AND QUESTION FOR YOU ANOTHER CHECK HOW TO GET OFF YOUR ASS AND DO SOMETHING YOU NOW FEEL"DEPRESSED AND LAZY"I DID NOT LEAVE THIS COUNTRY FOR YOU TO LIVE THAT LIFE GET YOURSELF TOGETHER 

What's a finally calm her down and explain that I'm being dead serious

Mind you a couple months ago she's got my suicide letter and she said that she didn't care about it and I was like don't worry mom I already know that

She says that as a girl your hormones are changing and life's gonna suck for a while until you're a bit older then once you have a child, you're gonna feel bad depression again also, it could be the fact that you haven't gone to church in a little while, and you lost your connection with Jesus 

LIKE .WHAT. THE. FUCK

WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK 

YOU'RE TELLING ME THAT I'VE BEEN CRYING EVERY NIGHT CONSISTENTLY SINCE THE FIRST WEEK OF SCHOOL AND  YOU HAD THE AUDACITY TO SAY THAT LIKE WHAT😃

They were literally had dinner in the same room quietly, as if nothing happened

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Thursday 

Everything was going normal 

until. Period three.

All of us and the lights are flickering, and in the power cuts out

We're all like what's going on

He luckily we had emergency lights to a little bit of light in the room

Our principal comes into a room and said that this is a county wide power outage

Mind you that's like several towns in schools in the area and God knows how many districts

We have to go to the bathroom it was pitch darkness and you know what the worst part was

THEY WOULDN'T LET US USE OUR PHONES AS FLASHLIGHTS

we had to get escorts to come to the bathroom with us and shine their lights

Unfortunately, the power came back in the middle of lunch

Tbh I kind of wanted the power to stay out for a little bit longer 🫤😐

Then we had to take a music assessment test in chorus to see how well we could site read

For Context  site reading is when you can read a piece of sheet music and understand no it's key signature time signature, and other stuff

So I was eating in the middle of a class and these boys come up to me and sit down and start talking

All of a sudden, one of my bus mates will call him Jonathan starts yapping about why I'm eating in the middle class

Then I can hear his friend. Let's call him Christian say that "I thInk yUo'Ve haD EnoUgh 😜"

Then Jonathan repeat the same thing to me

Mind you I have been skipping meals, and I barely had anything for Lunch

ISTG I KICKED HIS CHAIR AND HE ALMOST FELL BACKWARDS

THEN I ALMOST CRIED

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Friday

A girl in my chorus class said I had pimples  all over my face, and that I had white stuff on my nose 

Mind you she has pimples on her shoulders 

HER. FUCKING. SHOULDERS. AND YET SHE HAD THE AUDACITY TALK ABOUT ME 

Yeah, so all in all great week Also should I do another oneshot 🤔

Don't forget to eat sleep and drink

~RainyDaySimp≽^•⩊•^≼

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