Vlad
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"Have you gone mad?"
"Is that even how you talk to your father"
"You want to be treated like a father, then behave like one, don't behave like an asshole.....I have made it clear I want nothing to do with what you are doing.", I barked.
He doesn't seem to get tired apparently of telling me what to do with my life.
"I am your father, you have to listen to me.", he announced
It annoyed me, I want him Dead but he is a good husband to my mother, he keeps her happy. That is the only thing keeping me from killing him.
"For a million times, I don't want to do Law. Let's get one thing clear. Only I get to decide what I want to do and it is Graphic Arts. You were a great Husband but a lousy Father. I don't want to be like you."
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I have 1000001 problems and they all start with me.
I am the biggest problem.
Where do I start from?
Do I list them down?
Or do I burn myself on trial?
1)I enjoy practising being deaf.
2)I hate Human interactions.
3)I hate being alive.
All my problems started on 11.44,19 November.
A mother who wanted nothing to do with me and a Father who was missing.
I don't know what the root cause is
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Only 1, yet I was a crazy child who broke many glassware that some wanted to break my head open a watermelon was broken open in a game by a few teenagers
Only 2, most assume I was born crazy, but still couldn't talk.
Only 3, fluent as a canary, it annoyed people, I was stupid, toys bought me over, Disney did a fucking great job in raising me.
Soon 4 turned 5 and turned 6
Daisy Died, I died, Love died
Seven Became Depress
Nine became a menace
10, girls were pretty and disgusting
11, hormones fucking took a dive
12, I wanted male validation
13, I wanted to be ruined but stupid promises came along
14 and 15
Racism
16, I sext
Covid said Ola mea umbra
17,18
Bambi got killed
19,20
I am the problem
I don't want to live
I don't want to die
I have 1000001 problems and they all start with me.
I am the biggest problem.
Where do I start from?
Do I list them?
YOU ARE READING
It just felt right because It was unnecessary drama.
RomanceWell, this is a journal, so you found it. Can I say Happy reading into my life? The life of a kid who hates love. This is a love story, darling. Well, I don't know about you but I hate school, I have been told it is a place to mingle with good souls...
