Muted // Felix-centric

Prologue

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🎶 How wonderful that you were born,
otherwise we would have missed you very much.
How nice that we are together,
we congratulate you, birthday boy! 🎶

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Would they have missed me?

I mean they wouldn't even had known me, would they?

How could they have missed someone, who never existed?

How would they have known about me?

But on the other side...

it's just a children song.

A birthday song...

A reminder that you lived one more year....

A reminder that you endured that much pain...

A reminder of some scars, that you got on that oh so special day.

A reminder of being someones child...

For me it's just another day, that I get to spend alone in the dirt... on my own... in my tears... bleeding...

How could I possibly celebrate this day?

September 15, 2000

The day I was born...

When did this day became my worst nightmare?

Was it 10 years ago, when my mother killed herself?

Was it 8 years ago, when my best friend betrayed me and made me look like the monster?

Was it 7 years ago when that friend killed himself due to mysterious reasons?

Was it 5 years ago, when my father raped me for the first time?

Was ist 3 years ago, when I tried to kill myself the first time?

Or was it last year, when I became who I am now... the muted, creppy boy?

I don't know.

And...

I don't care.

Because...

I will stay silent, until the day I die.

Which I hope will happen sooner then later...

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𝙸 𝚑𝚘𝚙𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚕𝚘𝚐 𝚜𝚘 𝚏𝚊𝚛.

𝙸𝚏 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚢 𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚊𝚜 𝚘𝚛 𝚠𝚑𝚒𝚜𝚑𝚎𝚜 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝙸 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚕𝚘𝚘𝚔 𝚒𝚗𝚝𝚘 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚖.

~𝚌𝚑𝚒𝚌𝚑𝚒