My fear of failure may have stemmed from the memories of my youth
Failing grades were unacceptable, a disgrace even, words that don't sooth
The miserable brain that's already suffering to keep up with the pressure
Surrounded by peers far greater than I, burdens weren't like feathers
That can dance gracefully where the wind carries them wherever
While I drag the chains in my feet letting everyone hear of my endeavors
I can do multiple good things over the course of my existence
But one mistake could drag my efforts back to its nonexistence
Eyes bore holes throughout my entire body, watching every move I make
Ignoring my successes, but waiting for my downfall, inklings of mistakes
Molding me into someone incompetent to a point that proving my worth
Required me to gain all skills that I could learn in this god-forsaken earth
For the sake of avoiding failure, I am no longer shaped by how I wanted to be
Carved by the hands that I do not possess, but what they liked to see from me
Agreeing to morals and decisions that do not belong in my bucket of water
Out of fear that one day my parents would finally disown me as their daughter
These failures I fear for my life like how my toddler self have feared the dark
At the end of the day, I am fatigued of hearing all these shitty remarks
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Red Wine
Ficción General❝What better way to have a chat but to talk about it over some red wine and fine cheese?❞ [ Writober 2023 ] Cover drawn by me
