it was a normal day, the gryffindor common room was full of sweet chatter, recently other houses starting mingling in others common rooms, not enough to be noticeable, but a few.
in the middle of the room sat james, sirius, remus, peter, regulus, dorcas, and marlene. they were just talking, O.W.L's had taken a toll on them but they didn't care right now, right now they were having fun.
besides regulus that's was, he had already had a run in with snape and mulciber calling him all sorts of names because he hung out with gryffindors, and somehow they found out he ran away. he went to andromeda, no one really knew besides very few pure blood families, for otherwise it would cause a riff in the black reputation, so how snape found out he wasn't sure, but he was promptly annoyed.
the clicking, the talking, the lip smacking, it was getting to regulus, but he tried not to let it bother him so he kept on pretending to be engaged in whatever was being told.
suddenly sirius turned to james catching him by suprise before saying
"prongs do you think we'd be brothers in every universe"
that felt like a hit to regulus,
"duh pads" james laughed
for the first time that evening reg decided to speak
"do you think we'd be brothers in every universe sirius?" suddenly sirius stopped laughing the rest of the group still joking around, but the radio silence between the two was deafening, it maybe lasted five seconds, but to regulus it felt like years
"are we even in this one?" sirius said, shattering regulus into a million pieces and causing the group to go silent,
"i mean come on reg, i left, im no longer part of the family, you however, you're still there leaving with mother dearest, probably still doing what she says and getting treated like the golden child"
regulus felt like he'd just been stabbed with a thousand knifes, all lit on fire and twisting in his gut. his brother, his brother? just saying that.. what even was saying? that they weren't brothers anymore because of that?
his eyes filled with tears, quickly he stood up, ready to run off but not before tellin sirius
"i don't live there anymore, I ran away last summer." then off he fled leaving the common room and heading to where he always goes to calm down, the astronomy tower.
"I- did he- did he just say-?" sirius started, panic laced within his voice. james didn't know if he should be angry or feel bad for sirius,
"that was too far mate" whispered peter, causing remus to nod his head.
"i didn't- i swear i didn't know" sirius blurred out, tears beginning to pool in his eyes.
"i'll go find him, make sure he's alright" james said telling no one in particular, before he headed out
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regulus sat in the tower his knees pulled to his chest, cigarette in his hand and a blank stare on his face, his eyes looking at a certain star in the sky, sirius star, he looked and looked but a yet he didn't know if it was anger or sadness he felt towards him. all he knew is he couldn't feel much of anything, just the wind that left a chill in his already cold bones.
"reg?" he heard a voice whisper, a voice he knew well.
"james" he mumbled back as james came to sit next to him
"you alright?"
reg just shrugged his shoulders before taking another drag, "maybe he's right, maybe i'm not his brother, you've been more of a brother to him than i have"
"regulus, love, don't say that"
"he said it himself james, you don't have to pretend he didn't, you heard him, im nothing to him, just someone who happens to share a last name" reg sighed looking at james, instantly regretting it when he saw james face, laced with worry that made him want to cry, so he settled his eyes back onto the sky
"you are his brother reg, you are, what he said was messed up, he took it back the minute you left"
"he wouldn't of if i didn't say i left"
"I think he would've" james said, trying to be reassuring, but how do you convince someone someone else had different intentions? you don't. you can't.
"actually reg, i really don't know, all I know is it was messed up, really messed up, and that you didn't deserve that and sirius should apologize."
"yeah he should" a hint venom laced reguluss throat, "i don't know what fantasy he lives in where i was treated perfect because i sure as hell wasn't"
james just nodded, "yeah, i don't know either reg, i really don't"
regulus almost wished james yelled at him, told him he was dramatic or that sirius meant something else , he thinks it hurt less that whatever this was.
he thought
and thought
and he couldn't think of any other way sirius would've meant it
so he cried
the tears started slow, but soon they came racking his body in sobs, catching james in suprise but quickly going to pull regulus into him.
regulus clutched onto james shirt as if it was the only thing keeping him alive; and maybe it was.
so there they say while regulus sobbed, after maybe an hour regulus had exhausted himself and had fallen asleep.
so james picked him up holding him to him like a koala and brought him to the dorm. entering the room sirius looked at them eyes red, rimmed with tears.
sirius started to say soemthing but james cut him off "tomorrow, you and reg need to talk,"
"i'm sorry" sirius whispered
"i know" james muttered back before lying down reg shifting to lay back down on his chest.
james stayed up that night thinking, but eventually around 3am sleep took over him.
part two of them talking out soon ~
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Wolfstar // Jegulus One-Shots
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