September 17th Monday 6:50am
I woke up to the sound of my alarm
My head was pounding, as if i was drunk the other day and now hungover
Which i am.
I shouldn't have drunk its Monday, a school day and the most tiring day of the week
I turn off my alarm before my dad wakes up from it and get out of bed
It feels empty without my mother, its been a day since she got dead and its been a day since her birthday
I started tearing up
"No time for this Minho you have school" I spoke to myself
I went to the bathroom to brush my teeth and ready my hair
I stared into the mirorr, unwanted-ly
I feel senseless
Tired
Stressed
Scared
Depressed
Lonely.I sound so emo-
Anygays
I brush my teeth and get rid of my clothes to take a shower
The scars over my chest,stomach,arms and thighs
I look ugly
Nobody would want me
Nobody will handle my depression
I can't act normally
"Snap out of it, you have school to attend asshole."
I snapped at myselfI went into my shower thinking about the pretty blue box sitting in the corner of my desk waiting to be touched and covered in blood
I got out of the shower quickly to check the time on my phone
7:41am
I quickly go to my room to get the pretty box from my desk aswell as some books and notebooks with a pencil-case
I change obviously and get chewing gumI go down the stairs to see if my dad is awake
He isn't
I have good-luck I guess
I grab my water bottle and put water inside it and run
I go out the door as soon as i can
"Shit." I cursed
You want to know why?
I forgot to bring make-up and extra clothes incase I get 'dirty'
I will just ask the school for clothes
And i will ask my female-friend for some make-up to borrow I also don't use her for make-up
I go to school as normal, craving food
I don't need food
"Felix~~~ C'MONNNN we're going to be lateeeeee"
Jisung exclaimed"Hold upppppppp" Felix replied with a sigh
"I'm ready now come, we're gonna be late for schoollll" Felix said
"Sunghoon!! Can you please drop me and Felix to school?" Jisung said
"No problem get in the car and i will just get your mom" Sunghoon said
"My mom..?" Jisung asked Felix
"I don't know?" Felix said confuzzled aswell
"Morning Jisung, I just want to come because Dad's employee's mother just died and he wants his son to join your school so i'm signing him in because they live pretty far away" Mrs.Han said
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FanfictionWarning : Swearing,abuse,trauma,eating disorder, self harm, mental health, rich x poor Minsung Minho is having a hard time in... life. Jisung is here to save him from his trauma,depression and other stuff in Minho's life At the end they're a freakin...