Just A Nobody

GIFT OF A MISTAKE

Beep...Beep...

I was aggressively pressing the car horn because I was stuck in this traffic.

I just finished my duty now and I have to get to the nursery as soon as possible because my daughter is waiting for me.

I am supposed to pick her up at 6 p.m and it's already 8:30 p.m

There was an emergency meeting at our company due to a major change in one of our biggest projects a few weeks ago.

Beep...Beep...

The honks of the cars are going in unison.

I opened the window and looked at the traffic to check what was causing all this.I'm in the middle of the bridge.

"This can't be helped, I am going to be late again," I said to myself.

I dropped my forehead on the steering wheel which caused a long beep of my car. I grabbed my bag from the passenger seat and got my phone.

15 Missed calls.

I dialed the number.

"Hello?" The person on the other line said. "Hello, Miss I am sorry this happened again, I didn't get to answer your calls earlier, something came up at work." I answered.

"Where are you now Ma'am? It's almost 3 hours now since the last pick-up," she said, I could hear the bitterness in her voice.

" I am on my way right now, I am sorry," I said and apologized again and again.

"Please hurry Ma'am, I also have children that I have to take care of," she said and hung up the phone.

I throw the phone on the back seat and drop my forehead on the wheel again. I released all my anger and mixed emotions I had on the steering wheel.

I looked out the window,I can see the moon shining so brightly, and the city light on the right side.

Everything seems so calm and settled.

I tried to calm myself,and decided to take a deep breath to regain my composure.

My daughter's nursery was on the other side of the bridge, and there was no way around this traffic jam.

I had to be patient and make the best of the situation, for my daughter...

As I sat there, I thought about how this hectic day had unfolded.

The emergency meeting at work had thrown everything off schedule, and it seemed like these last-minute crises were becoming a recurring theme. I knew my job was demanding, but my role as a mother was just as important.
I reached for my phone again and sent a quick text message to my daughter's teacher, apologizing once more and assuring her that I was on my way.

The guilt I felt was overwhelming.

I had missed too many of these pick-up deadlines lately, and it was affecting not only my daughter but also the nursery staff who had their own families.

As the traffic slowly began to move, The bridge had always been a jam during rush hour, but today, it felt like a test of my patience. I watched the taillights ahead of me, knowing that with each passing minute, my daughter was waiting for me.

I looked at the side of the bridge once again, There I saw a man and a woman standing behind the railings, facing the water-front.

I wish my life was as easy as theirs;

having time like this.

Relaxing and having their own time, I can't even remember the last time I went to the ocean. But like how inconceivable for me getting my life back, it's impossible to be the same old me...Because of some mistakes, I've made in the past that I can't change any more.