Starting Over (TojixReader)

Mending Broken Pieces

Toji arrives at your house a little after 7. You see him pull up and you run to the bathroom to look in the mirror. You look fine but you're panicking. He walks up to the door and knocks. You take a deep breath and hold it. You are truly terrified to face this man. Sober at that. To actually see his face and actually have a conversation with him. You walk up to the door and open it.

Toji looks you up and down. He's nervous but is really good at hiding it. He is dressed in his work attire, but he untucked his shirt and rolled up his sleeves. He wanted to look casual not professional.

Wow. She looks so nice. She is so beautiful.

"Hey, sorry I'm at few minutes late. I got caught in traffic after dropping Megumi off." he said.

You just watch him as he talks. You feel like you're daydreaming. You really can't believe this. He looks so nice. A gust of wind comes by and you can smell him. He smells so good.

"(Y/n) uh, you gonna let me in?" You snap out of it and say, "Yeah, of course. Sorry I - I don't know."

He walks in and compliments your place. You thank him. He has became more generous since you've seen him. He seems so in tune with everything. He wants to be more careful with you. In the past he really didn't care unless it involved him. Anything you did, he really didn't support you unless you included him. But now, he seems like he let go of his ego.

"So, you said something about dropping Megumi off? Why didn't you just bring him?" You say as you guide him to the living room.

He sits on the couch answering, "Well, I don't want him to get all attached."

You see the smirk on his face. You smile. "Well, I guess you better keep him away."

He laughs, "But I do want you to meet him. I feel like he would like you."

As you guys sit on the couch, he reaches for his phone. You watch every move he makes. You can't help but think about what changed him. He used to gamble and drink a lot. He came home at late times. He never told me what he did those nights. But you still saw through that and still loved him. Did this kid change him or did he find a woman who could? you thought.

"Speaking of the booger," he says while turning his phone to you. It's a picture of him and Megumi. He's is so cute. He looks identical to Toji. He put him on speaker phone.

Megumi screams, "DADDY WHERE ARE YOU?!"

Toji laughs and says, "Gumi, I'm out at a friend's house, what do ya want kid?"

"WHY COULDNT I COME?" Megumi starts to whine. Toji mutes and says to you, "This is what I have to deal with on a daily basis." You laugh and just watch as he talks to his son. He turned into a decent person and dad. He used to be so different. You are happy for him but why couldn't he change for you?

An hour passes, the food gets to your house and you set plates down to eat. You put the food on the plate and call over Toji.

"It looks so good, thank you." He says.

"I hope it is, I made it myself," you said as you laughed.

He also laughs. You never really cooked. Takeout is your best friend. Toji is more of the cook. He can make some really good steak and potatoes.

You both sit at the table and start eating. It gets quiet. You watch him will he eats. You are just so mesmerized by him. But you do have questions. You have so much to say to him. He had a child since you last seen him. All you have done is work and exist.

He looks up from eating and asks, "You okay?"

"Yeah, yeah I just.. cant believe this is happening right now. Like how are you here? You have a kid now. I really don't know how to go about all this.. I disappear from your life for years and somehow you still found your way back to me.." You get quiet. You feel knots in your throat.

He looks down. He doesn't know what to say. He starts to play with his food.

"My kid and I moved here a year ago. When you left town, I had no idea you even did. Maki told me. She was pissed with me. I mean.. like she didn't talk to me until I told her about my kid." He said defensively. He wasn't looking for you. He thought you moved on. So he left town after a while wanting to start something new.

You started feeling tears swelling in your eyes. No, I can't cry. You take a deep breath and swallow. You swallow the pain that is held inside of you. You know he's in pain too. But he left.

"I loved you.... I still do (Y/n). I always have. When I found out you actually left town, I didn't know what to do with myself. I kinda lost myself until I had my kid." His tone shakes as he says these things.

He looks at you, he looks upset. You really don't know what to say to all of that. You know how he feels.

"I was so hurt Toji. You asked me to marry you and then that one lovely day. Our day. We were on the way to the wedding and you decide to turn around to tell me that you're not ready? Toji..." You stop talking and just look at him. "We were so in love Toji and you just threw it all away.. for what?"

He looks back at you. He can't say anything. He just stays quiet. After a minute, his phone starts ringing in is pocket.

Perfect timing Megumi, you both thought.

He gets off the phone and says, "Its bedtime. You wanna meet Megumi?" He smiles at you.

He was good at changing the subject which you didn't mind. It was getting too emotional and tense. Every feeling you had and have for him were coming up and you needed relief. Megumi was that relief. You really want to meet that cute kid anyways.

"Yes Toji, I would love too." You said with a smile.

"Maybe we could take him to the park this weekend, his friends are usually there." He said. Toji really loves that kid.

You both smile at each other. Your heart skips a beat. Did he say he still loved me?