always forever | beynika

10.

BEYONCÉ

"you stay coming to school smelling like a pound." michelle mugged me. i just shrugged, high off my ass and not really caring.

my date with robyn was about two weeks ago. since then, we've had sessions every day before school.

if my mom knew i was blowing like i was? she'd beat the brown off of me. i wouldn't even look like my mother anymore.

i leaned on kelly's arm and sighed softly.

i really was always high nowadays, but it was the only way to get through the pain i was feeling.

i wanted onika.

i hated seeing her walk around with that football player. it wasn't fair. she's supposed to be with me like that.

the bell rang for class, but i didn't want to go. i've been skipping class too. i got up and caught a glimpse of onika walking out before the others. i grabbed my stuff and went after her.

"where you going?" i asked her, catching up to the midget. she mugged me.

"damn, bey, what you smoked on?" she asked. i rolled my eyes.

"onika, please. we are in the same boat." i retorted.

she laughed. "you right. but i'm skipping, fuck that class and fuck them people. wanna join?"

i nodded. "yeah, let's go." i agreed.

she took my hand and pulled me along with her. we ran from the school and down the street. we took a few turns and we were in a secluded spot. it was a little beat up, but seemed okay.

"this is the hideout." she told me, setting her book bag down and i did the same.

"you must come here with wayne and drake?" i asked and she nodded.

"if i'm honest? id rather be here than anywhere else. even home. my mom is starting to pick up on my behavior, and she tries to whoop me. but i ain't going for it." she pulled out a small, rectangular box.

she pulled out some weed, a cigar and a lighter. i raised a brow.

"so don't you think you shouldn't be doing this? i mean if carol is on your ass, you better get right." i said to her but she shrugged.

"i don't care for real. at least not anymore. life has been shit." she started to roll up.

is it a bad thing to say i found it attractive? she looked good. i want her tongue on me-

"do you smoke? well, i shouldn't even ask that question. i can smell it all over you." she laughed at me.

i rolled my eyes. "yes, but i just started. robyn is teaching me." i said.

"don't speak about her around me, alright?" she said, her demeanor changing.

i sat next to her. "not you jealous of robyn? i don't see why. you with the stallion."

onika ignored my statement. she lit the blunt then started to smoke.

"you shouldn't be doing this, bey. i don't like that you be smoking so much." she said, passing the blunt to me.

i shrugged. "it helps. so imma do it."

she just shook her head. i knew it wasn't good for me, but i was starting not to care so much. onika took the blunt back and put it out. we were high enough.

onika turned to face me. "im gonna be real.. i miss you. i miss us. i don't like how much we've separated, bey. i want us back." she admitted.

i bit my lip. "i miss us too. but it's different. especially because you've got a girlfriend now."

onika sucked her teeth. "i don't even want that girl. i just claim her, i have no feelings for her at all. but you've got robyn now."

i looked at her. "she's not my girlfriend. we're just talking. nothing more. i'm single."

the two of us held eye contact, studying each other. i felt every urge to kiss onika, but i didn't know what was stopping me from doing it. i brushed through my hair in a way to comfort myself.

onika cupped my cheek and kissed me. my eyes widened, shocked. it took a moment, but i ended up kissing back.

this being my first kiss, i was nervous. i pulled away, grimacing. i didn't know who onika had her mouth on before me.

"have you kissed megan? or anyone else?" i asked onika. she looked away from me and i wiped my lips off.

"don't ever kiss me again." i sighed softly. i hated that her first kiss wasn't with me. i got up from the spot i was sitting in.

"i should go. im realizing that im dumb and- and you've probably done so much with so many people. and i'm sitting here- never mind." i picked up my stuff but she stopped me.

"no, beyoncé, stop. i've only kissed megan, but that was that. i've done nothing else. and it wasn't even what i wanted. it was against my will. she kissed me." she explained, holding my hands.

i looked away from her but she made me look back at her.

"bey, please believe me.." she looked into my eyes. i stared back into hers and relaxed.

"okay, i'm sorry.. i just- i don't know what you've done since i've been gone. and.. im- i like you, onika. i didn't understand my feelings before, but i do now. i like you. i want you. but i'm a little scared." i admitted to her.

if i wasn't high,id be freaking my ass out. but it felt good to say this to her finally.

onika cupped my face and kissed me again. this time, with so much love. i felt it all, and returned her kiss.

"i like you too, bey. why do you think i practically stalked you? i know what kind of time people be on and i didn't want you to end up a victim of some shit. that's one reason why i became close with wayne and drake. i knew they'd also look out for you too. we even gave you a code name. you're 'the bee'".

i blushed. "wait really? yall were talking about me? i don't know why i never put two and two together." i laughed softly.

"yes, it's you. i want you and just you. do you think we can.. try something? like being together?" she asked me.

i answered with no hesitation. "yes, i want to be with you."

she smiled wide and nodded. "good. great actually." she hugged me and i hugged her back.

we got our belongings then went down to a corner store. we got some snacks then went to the park. we sat against a tree and watched the people.

it felt amazing to be like this with onika again. i didn't want to trade this feeling for anything else in the world.

onika is my girl.

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a/n: are yall happy???? 🙄 i'm sick of the slander in my comments

this one is kinda short on purpose. the next chapter(s) will be full of stuff.

chapter 11 is about finished. so if yall really want it, TELL ME NEEOOWWW!!! cause one thing about me?? imma log off this app and go to bed 😭

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