always forever | beynika

12.

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"give me a kiss." i puckered my lips.

she didn't hesitate to kiss me. i was enjoying it until i heard my mom clear her throat.

onika and i jumped up quickly, looking in her direction.

"you wanna explain what i just saw?" she asked with her arms folded.

we didn't say anything, just sat there in complete shock.

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"um- momma-," i paused. it was blatantly clear what we were doing. so why would i lie? there was no point. "you just saw us kiss.. that's what." i pulled away from onika.

my mom stood there with a blank face, her arms folded across her chest. i couldn't tell what she was thinking and that kind of scared me.

"im sorry, ma. i-i know its disrespectful to d-do that. especially in your home. please forgive me! well- us." onika stuttered terribly. she, too, was afraid of what my mother would do. even more afraid of what her mother would do.

my mom burst out laughing at us. she was hysterical, throwing her head back and slapping her knee. i was confused and so was my girlfriend.

"you two didn't think i was mad, did you?" she asked, looking between us both. we both nodded and she laughed more.

"i'm not mad at all. i want you two together. i couldn't stand watching you two be apart for so long. i don't care that you're dating." she walked to me and hugged me. then hugged onika. i sighed in relief. i did not want an ass whooping today.

"however, there better not be no baby making in my house!" she warned us.

"we promise. right, bey?" onika looked at me and i nodded. "yep! no baby making." i smiled. onika guided me into her arms and hugged me. i blushed and hugged her back. then i pulled away.

"oh! i ain't forgot! momma, nini hit me in my head!" i complained.

"good, you probably deserved it. especially after you behavior at school today."

"momma, she's suspended too. she was fighting!" i snitched.

my mom popped onika in her forehead. "now you know better, tanya. you lucky i'm not a snitch cause i'd go tell carol." she pointed her finger at her.

i took onika back to my room and we sat in my bed for hours. it was nearing six, and this was the time onika would usually do homework. she tried to encourage me, but i just wasn't feeling it.

"no, mama, come on. we will study together. i'm not letting you fail. plus i'm sure if you asked, ma will help you." she sat on the bed next to me.

i huffed. "i'm just embarassed. i hate that i let so much bother me to where i'm failing. i'm-,"

"i got you, baby. we in this together. don't be embarrassed." she open my geography book. "let's get these review questions done. im using you as my motivation so use me as yours."

to say i was happy onika was back in my life was an understatement. i felt so much joy being with her again. and the fact that she cared meant everything to me.

i forced myself to get through the questions. truthfully, they weren't hard at all. it was my motivation that was low. school was no longer important to me. and after these last few days with megan, i truly was worn out. being suspended was a blessing. i could use these ten days to figure myself out, get myself back on track.

after completing several missing assignments, onika and i got called down for dinner. things took a slight turn as carol was sitting downstairs. we never heard her come in, and onika turned into a ghost.

carol looked at her daughter with an amused look. "so, you didn't think to tell me you got in trouble today and was sent home? i had to find out you had left and you turned up here. care to explain?"

ONIKA

i couldnt even face my mom right now. my legs were wobbly and my hands were sweaty. my mom didnt tolerate misbehvaing at all. and im sure since she talked to my administrator, she foudn out about my grades and absences. she had a calm look to her face but i knew deep down that my mother was livid. im sure she already had her weapons of choice waiting to meet my ass with.

i felt beyonces soft hand on mine and i calmed down a little. "well.. i was being bullied and harassed. i wasnt going to stand there and let the girl do it so i fought her. i knew it was wrong but i couldnt be weak, i stood up for myself. it was self defense."

my mom jus nodded. i sat down next to bey. i anxiously rubbed my legs because i knew there was more bound to happen.  i looked over at my girlfriend who gave me a reassuring smile. i knew she could feel my nerves radiating off of me.

the four of us casually talked while we ate on dinner. it was good, until miss knowles said something she should not have.

"well i just find it adorable that our girls are dating. they truly are the epitome of soulmates. i always knew they were since the two were younger."

my mom dropped her fork, the dining room falling silent. all you could hear was the light buzzing of the air conditioning.

"you guys are what?!" my mother grew furious. she looked at tina. "how long did you know?"

''i just found out today that they were together.'' she said. but that only made my mom angrier.

"you think i am going to allow this? you must be out of your fucking mind, onika! i was already putting up with your boyish clothing and let you walk around like a dyke, but i wont let you be one! thats unacceptable!" she stood up, grabbing me too.

"and you, tina! the fact that you are even allowing this is disgusting and distasteful on your end! they are children, they know nothing about being gay! goes to show what kind of mother you truly are!"

"don't you dare talk about the way i raise my daughter! there is nothing wrong with their relationship, so i don't know why you care so much and hold so much hatred for it! if you feel like i'm so distasteful, you can get the hell on! aint nobody making you stay here!" tina yelled.

my mom dragged me out of the dining room. i started to cry, reaching for beyonce.

"mommy, no!"

"let's go, onika! you will never see these sickos again! i will not allow you to be gay, and i do not give a damn what you say! you are a child! i am withdrawing you from that school!" my mom yelled.

beyonce got up and ran to me, trying to pull me away but my mom was a lot stronger than her.

"please don't take her! i cant lose her again!" hearing bey cry made me cry even more.

my mother pushed me into her car. as we pulled off, i watched beyonce stand on her front porch crying. tina walked to her daughter and embraced her.

i was afraid now. i did not know what was going to happen, nor if i really would ever see bey again. i turned towards the car window and sobbed. we got home and i ran straight to my bedroom, locking the door.

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a/n: uuummm plot twist? chile idk.

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