always forever | beynika

5.

"i think.. i think like girls, beyoncé." onika expressed to beyoncé.

the two had gotten through half of their sixth grade year, now on winter break. it was just two days before new years, and the girls were having a sleepover, like usual.

beyoncé nodded. "okay, i don't care." she shrugged.

onika raised her brows. "wait, really?" she didn't think beyoncé would be so chill about it. she hadn't even told her mom yet. onika felt she should tell beyoncé first.

"yeah.. am i supposed to be mad and hate you?" beyoncé looked at onika. "you could tell me you're changing your name to roman and would like to be a boy. i wouldn't care. you're still my best friend."

the words "best friend" kind of hurt onika. as beyoncé was the one she had a crush on. beyoncé, without her knowledge, helped onika figure out her orientation. her crush on beyoncé wasn't huge, but it was there and it lingered.

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the parents had everyone over for new years, waiting for the ball to drop. there were kids galore but beyoncé and onika only navigated to each other.

"hey, you wanna play catch?" a cousin of beyoncé's asked her. onika didn't like that.

"no, she's with me." onika responded. she rolled her eyes. she hated when people tried to take beyoncé away from her.

"sure, i'll come play." beyoncé smiled, pulling away from onika. this caused onika to roll her eyes again.

onika grunted and then started to whine. "but beyoncé!" onika gripped onto her hand.

beyoncé's cousin looked at onika weirdly. "um- your friend is weird, juju. why does she act like that?"

beyoncé ignored the comment. "come join us." beyoncé drug onika along with the other children, forcing onika to play too.

after playing for awhile, onika and beyoncé ended up in onika's room.

onika, once again, was complaining about the lack of attention she was receiving. beyoncé listened to her ranting, but didn't totally entertain it.

"you're ignoring me!" onika whined, sitting next to beyoncé.

"i'm not, nini, but you say this everyday. it's like you want me and my eyes glued to you all day." beyoncé looked at her.

"maybe i do.." onika shrugged.

beyoncé laid back on the bed then sighed. "nini, be honest, do you like me?"

the question took onika's breath away. it was unexpected. she wanted to lie, but beyoncé knew her well.

"i.. you're my best friend, duh!" onika attempted to play it off. it didn't work though.

"nini, seriously." beyoncé looked over at her.

onika sighed. "fine. i do like you beyoncé." she admitted.

onika was sure of the feelings for her best friend, but she never acted on them. she was afraid beyoncé would find it weird and in return, leave her.

beyoncé just nodded. she didn't know how to feel about the crush her best friend had. beyoncé wasn't the kind of person to have crushes. especially because she was picked on all the time.

"what do you think? do you hate me?" onika asked, fear laced in her tone.

"no, you're still my best friend."

and with that, onika flopped back onto beyoncé's bed, wishing her crush for the girl would go away.

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a/n: i probably won't update anything for awhile until i get my shit together.

i'll still interact w/ y'all, of course.

i love you:)