winter episode 2

winter

I'm laying on my back in the middle of a field that's full of sunflowers I reach up to touch one and it moves with my hand. I pull away to admire it, but burst into flames. I scream and sit up quickly I glance around to see every single flower's bloom in this field is on fire. it looks like a field of glowing orbs i'm panicking because I can't save them "it's alright child you can fix it" I hear a voice behind
me. I jerk my head around to see the beautiful lady with the long white hair
"what do you mean I can fix it? I can't they're all burning and it's my fault" she reaches out and cups my cheek "no child it's not your fault, you must believe in yourself. believe in your mates they need you just as much as you need them" my mates? even in my dreams i'm being dooped by them. doesn't she understand this? but this is just a dream. "it's not just a dream winter, I am the white oracle. i'm here to guide you. you must embrace your gifts you have fought and you have survived now you need to live and love, let them love you" she starts to disappear "no wait tell me what to do, please!" "you know the truth winter, trust your heart"
I sit up in the bed breathing hard with tears streaming down my face. What a crazy dream could she be right? is she real? she did show me Ryder and then he was there saving me. Then theres Asher and the emotions we can feel from each other. Maybe I should go talk to the guys and try to open my mind, it just seems so far fetched. I need to speak to Bash hopefully he'll be honest with me. He said he'd never hurt me.
I'm trying to talk myself into going to the guys, but i'm scared. I'm afraid of what all they'll tell me, of how I'll react. What if I say the wrong thing and they make me leave? What if they're really messing with me and I walk into them all having a good laugh? I cant help but feel a little disappointed in thatvthought. What if I don't want to stay anymore? I can't imagine not seeing them again, not being close to them. Even if Cade doesn't want me here. I was coming up with a plan to get him to like me. Put on your big girl pants Winter, the only way to resolve it, is to face it. I have a lot of what ifs. I need a lot of answers.