Alec POV
I looked at Toby, who looked just as devastated as I felt. He wasn't coming. We had waited for three hours, just waiting in our safe space for him to arrive, yet he never did. We clung to the hope that maybe he was running late or got lost, yet after so much time we gave up on the hope he would show. Why we had hope in the first place, I don't know but it still hurt when he didn't show.
Toby had tears brimming at the edge of his eyes as it seemed his chance to apologize had slipped away and Vann- Vaughn made it very clear he wanted nothing to do with us - not even a sincere apology. Neither I nor Toby could blame him though, how we treated him was much worse than how he was treating us now, but it still shattered my heart - even more so knowing he would've felt worse than this, even without the added confusion of why we ever left him.
It hit about three and a half hours until Toby and I began to head back, with Vaughn being nowhere in sight, which felt like a small dagger going straight through my, and probably Tobby's, heart.
It felt like the guilt of the past would eat us alive.
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It was only when I was walking into work the next day that I saw him. He seemed a bit down - making me feel awful yet I had no clue why. Maybe something happened yesterday that made it so he couldn't come and it wasn't just that he didn't want to? This filled me with hope I knew I shouldn't have, but still, it made me feel a bit giddy. Maybe we still had a chance?
With hopeful thoughts rushing through brain, I approached him.
"Vaughn, wait!"
He froze for a second before turning. He saw it was me and was about to keep walking when I grabbed his arm quickly.
That was before I noticed I had grabbed his arm, so I quickly let go. "I'm sorry-"
"What do you want Alec?" His eye darting away from me, along with what felt like a blow to the chest as he used my full name.
"Why didn't you turn up yesterday?" I paused, yet he didn't respond so I felt I should elaborate. "We wait three hours and you didn't show. Did something come up? Is that why you look so down today? You can tell me- us!"
He again, didn't respond so I kept going, hoping he would respond to something. Yelling at me seemed better than silence. "I know what we did to you was awful - it's my biggest regret and I have no clue how to make it up to you. Even when I'm trying, nothing feels like enough and just - can you please let me know how I can make it up to you? I'll be there for you! I always should have been I just, I don't know what was wrong with me and for that I could never forgive myself. While I want your forgiveness, I understand if you never could, but please don't ignore us. And please, if there's anything we can do, please let us help you."
He remained silent, his eyes never meeting mine. Yet, I could still see a tear roll down the side of his cheek.
"Vanny-"
"What did I ever do for you to leave me?"
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