I like to think maybe I bring a spark a joy in the life of few people. I like to think maybe I meant more to somebody. I like to think maybe I changed some lives for a better.
But there are moments where sometimes I throw those thoughts away and just want the future to be bleak. I doubt every crevice of one's thoughts and think myself lesser. The one question that I always keep asking myself is "Does anybody really need you?"
And despite the piles of reassurance people pour onto me, it never seems to satisfy that itch in the back of my brain.
*Im not tht good at helping but im always here to comfort you in any way i can :)*
Those words are all I need, but how long until my soul starts to dip itself into tar again? How long until I'm crying, apologizing for annoying everybody I ever wronged.
I'm sorry.
Sometimes I do wish I could change myself and not be so buggy. Sometimes I like my personality but then I start to hate it the most at certain moments.
Sometimes I wish the last words I ever said were written down on a paper. Just my apologies and goodbyes.
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The asterisks was my friend trying to help me lol
