My special one. Tsu'tey x oc (Under editing)

Chapter 15

Slanted is Na'vi.
Trigger Warning! Talk and descriptions of depression and PTSD.
(Pic made by me is a rough sketch of what Riely looks like)

Three years have passed since my parents made the announcement that me and Tsu'tey were to be mated to one another. I turn 18 here in four weeks and it is sure to be a birthday celebration to remember. After that day me and Tsu'tey also started courting. It's been wonderful, he is always there for me when I'm going though one of my "episodes". After everything that has happened I developed something that the humans would call PTSD as well as something called depression. Some days I would completely space out and the world around me would fade as memories of death and destruction haunt me. It could be triggered by even the simplest things some days too. Such as the sound of branches breaking a particular animal noise or the one sound that triggers it the most would be the sound of gunshots in the distance. Tsu'tey is always the one there for me when an episode starts. At this point i think he has a sixth sense for when they are about to start.

The depression is always there though. Even when i'm feeling my happiest it sits there nagging me in the back of my mind and no matter how hard I try to ignore it it finds a way to make me experience these feelings of self-hatred. It also manages to exploit all my insecurities and whisper them to me like an evil little voice in my mind. Telling me that I will never amount to anything or that I can never be a good mate or clan member and that I should just go and off myself. The worst thing about this is over half the time I believe the voice. Some days it gets so bad to where I cry for hours thinking that all the people I love are gonna abandon me because they will finally realize that it was my fault that Sylwanin died. Despite all this Tsu'tey stays with me always and he helps me through everything. He will be a great mate and leader. Over time though I slowly gain control over the episodes and doing the things I love helps with the depression most of the time.

Many things have changed in the last few years. One of the worst things is that Grace is no longer allowed anywhere near the village and another thing is I am no longer allowed to visit her, Trudy, or Lyle. Even if I was allowed to visit them I would be able to get near them without being shot down by Quaritch. Sometimes I wonder if they even know I'm alive. I know for a fact Quaritch has told them that I "died" in battle after that woman shot me twice in the gut. For a human that is a fatal wound and if not treated right then and there means death. For now though I have better things to worry about than that for a group of humans have been spotted along the border and I have been instructed to observe them to make sure they do not cross into our territory. I start packing up my needed supplies for the journey and as I start to finish up Tsu'tey walks in and looks around. What are you doing? He asks me as I finish tying my knife to my hip. A group of dreamwalkers have been seen wandering close to the border. Mother and father have instructed me to watch them and make sure they don't disturb the natural order and make sure they dont cross into our territory. I tell him as go to walk out but he was quick to stop me.

You should not be the one to go. They should send someone else. He says as he kneels down to look me in the eye. I roll my eyes slightly as I have kind of been getting frustrated with him for doing this kind of thing. Yet I can't stay mad at him for I understand where he is coming from. I almost died the last time I encountered humans and have been going through the slow process of healing mentally and physically. Tsu'tey i know how you feel about this but, im not fragile at least not as fragile as i was at the start ok? I need to be able to do this. I tell him as I bring his hand up to my face and nuzzle his palm. I know, I know but I worry. I almost lost you last time. He says with a slight whimper in his voice as he puts his forehead to mine. Our noses touch and our lips are so close yet so far from each other at the same time. We pull away and he stands to his full height. It is quite comical to see us stand side by side i barely reach his hips anymore. It is also what scares me a bit, he is so huge compared to me how will we make our mating work?

I shall not keep you any longer, come I will walk you to the Ikran. He says and starts to walk out the door. We walk to where the Ikran roost in hometree and I saddle Spur. She gives me loving nips but gives Tsu'tey the side eye. At least she is no longer trying to bite him, the jealous girl. Tsu'tey helps me onto her back despite my protests and I settle into the saddle. Be careful and come back to me safe Ma Riely. He says. I will, I promise. I say and it is then that Spur jumps from the branches and takes flight. Flying though the sky has always brought me great joy, for here I feel free. We fly for a few hours before landing in a tree close to where the Dreamwalkers were first spotted in their giant flying machine, or as they call it a chopper. Walking around I soon spot it and immediately recognise it. It's Trudy's samson. I can tell it's hers because it's the only one with an earth animal called a tiger painted on the side. I helped her paint it too. I creep closer to it and look to see who is near it and to my joy and surprise it's Trudy and Lyle. A sad smile creeps up on my face before thinking quickly I start making an animal call. The call I make is not of any animal from Pandora but one from earth, the call of a cheetah. Me, Lyle and Trudy would use it when playing hide and seek at hell's gate.

3RD POV
Lyle who was wandering outside of the samson snapped his head up and his eyes widened. Did you hear that? He calls out to Trudy who was sitting on top of the nose of the samson. Yeah, I heard that alright. You don't think? Trudy trails off as she looks towards the treeline. I don't know, maybe but i'm not going to hold my hopes high after what the colonel and Z-Dog told me. Lyle whispers before facing the trees as well. Shorty, that you? He calls out hesitantly. They wait a few seconds and each anxious breath they take fogs up their masks. Suddenly a Na'vi arrow lands in front of them. It was smaller than the average na'vi arrow but it's a na'vi arrow all the same. Trudy picks it up and holds it close to her chest as tears well up in her eyes. Holy shit she's alive. Lyle gasps as he too feels the tears start to rise. We can't tell the colonel this if he knows she's alive who knows what he'll do. Trudy says as she throws the arrow back into the tree line. For once I agree with you. Lyle says as he watches the trees hoping to catch a glimpse of the young girl who he sees as niece. Suddenly they hear the roar of a Thanator and catch a glimpse of a small figure running through the tree branches towards where the roar came from