HER

Dream Come True

I processed my discharged already.
Waiting for my bill. Paid the bill given to me.

When I reached home, you're still there.
You asked me how am I doing, I responded "fine".
You felt that I'm so cold towards you.
We conversed, and I bursted out my anger.

You kept giving me mixed signals when I was at the hospital. You're bothering me but you never showed up. Not even a shadow! You kept on asking where am I going. It's like you're bothered that I might go somewhere.

I'm in pain seeing you busy chatting with the girl. I'm in pain knowing you're having a date with that woman while I'm in the hospital.

I exploded. I told you "DI NAKO. WA NASAD KAY BALIKAN KAY DILI NAKO. HUMANA KO. GIKAPOY NAKO. AFTER SA IMONG APPLICATION UNSA MAN GANI ANG RESULT, D KO GUSTO MAKITA PA NAKO IMONG NAWNG! D KO GUSTO MAGPAKITA PAKA NKO, BUHATON NAKO TANAN DI LANG TA MAGKITA BALIK. AYAW NAG PANGUTANA SA aKONG FAMILY ABOUT NAKO. I'LL CUT YOU OFF. I'M BETTER OFF WITHOUT YOU. DILI NANI MA FIX ATONG RELASYON DUHA. IF MAGBALIK MAN GANI TA SAME RA GIHAPON UG PADULNGAN. SO MUCH BETTER NGA PUTLON NA NATO TANAN."
Finally, I was able to say this to her.

After a few minutes the tension cooled down.
We talked again in a normal tone.
I explained what I am feeling.

After a few days, during my day offs, I always went to my best friend's house just to divert my attention. I kept myself busy. I'm playing tennis now.
I only went home during work days.

I went out for a walk, I received a text message from you. My eyes widened when I read the message. I'm overwhelmed. I'm so happy for you. A dream come true indeed! I'm so thankful because all I wished during my birthday is for you to reach your dream, to become a police officer. I also told myself that I will only leave you once you're already a police officer. I just want to make sure that there's no reason for you to get so down anymore because you already achieved it.  God is good all the time. He granted my wish.

October 12, 2023 4a.m

I'm still waiting for my shift to end, you asked me to write your names to all your stuffs.

Before I went to my best friend's house we bid each other good byes. You hugged me so tight, tears running down your face. You kept on apologizing to me and thanking me for all the sacrifices I made for you. I told you that "Iloveyou but I'm better off without you. I'm so proud of you. All the sacrifices we had paid off! Look at you now. I'm thankful that I was able to stop you from all your suicidal thoughts. I'm really your guardian angel! Hahaha. Maybe I'm just an instrument to help you reach your dreams.
I WILL NEVER BE THE ONE because I WAS NOT THE ONE". You look at me when I said those words. And hugged me while crying.

We separated in a good way.
When I was riding in the bus, I received a message from you. Which almost makes me cry.

Then the day of the oathtaking came.

October 13, 2023.
I attended your oath taking with your mum.
Since you both really want me to be there.

I tried to distance myself but you kept on pulling me towards you.
We group hugged and jumping because we're very happy that you made it!

My heart this time is so intense! Like I don't want this day to end. Can we stay this way forever?

Those gaze!
Don't look at me like that!

I'm very happy for you. All the hardwork already paid off. Honestly I'm scared for the fact that I'll be facing the world on my own. Without you here by my side. I don't know where to start everything reminds me of you.

I really wished that we can still work it out but it's better this way.
What a bitter sweet ending.