HER

You Broke Me Again

You're almost healed from the heartbreak that you went through. I helped you heal. Then you asked me to start over again. I was afraid. I am afraid that later on we'll just experience the same scenario. I let you courted me for weeks.

June 13, 2018.
I gave you my answer. You were so happy. We started from the scratch. I was so happy that you and I are together again. Everything runs smoothly. We're both working though our time doesn't coincide, We always made sure that we can give each other time to catch up. We always had a spontaneous date, escapade.

December 26, 2018.
I was at the office. I don't know why I felt so bothered, uneasy. Like, I wanna go home asap. It was around 3 a.m, I asked my Team Leader if I can have an under time because I'm not feeling well (I lied).

When I got home, I felt so nervous. I don't know why. I just stand in front of the door. I knocked. I heard some sounds coming from our apartment. I waited, it took you too long to open the door. I just stood there for almost 15 minutes.

We're already laying in bed. I noticed your phone lit up. I grabbed it and checked it. My eyebrows furrowed reading the notification. I saw a facebook code from the messages (this is your company phone, which I'm wondering why you have a facebook code when the number linked to your account is different). I asked you why is there a code in your company phone. You stuttered. But can't give me an answer. Seeing how you react makes me think that there's something wrong, maybe you created a new facebook account. I asked you again, I asked you to open the account but you said "no, you'll get hurt". My jaw dropped. Confirmed! You're cheating again. I grabbed the phone from your hand, opened the messenger. I asked for the girls name, you're hesitant to give it to me but I'm so persistent so you gave me the name.
I clicked her profile, and sent her the photo of us kissing. I also told her that you have a girlfriend. You were so angry that I sent her our photo. I was really heart broken. fuck! She's really pretty. All the features that you like? Well, she has all of them.
We broke up, you broke up with me.

I was really hurt. We broke up but we're still living together. I kept on crying but I can't hate you. I still want to see you. I still love you even though I'm so hurt.

Mid of January when we got back together.

January 18, 2019, you surprised me. After your shift you asked me to go the location. I was shocked when you're holding chocolates, bouquet of baymax (I really love baymax).
We had our anniversary dinner.

Everything is all good, like you always make sure that I won't regret that I get back with you.

June 2019.
We visited your aunt. I was with her in your cousin's school. I opened your messenger. I was flustered when I saw your ex's account. I opened it and all I can see is just a like emoticon. I was confused and wondering what's your conversation is all about. I was shaking. Literally. I'm so disappointed. When I got home I asked you about it. You're hesitant to answer. I stare at you waiting for you to spill the tea. Then you gave in. You told me everything. I was broken hearted again. This time, I realized that we really need to stop this. I broke up with you. You cried your heart out. I just looked at you crying. There's no tears coming from my eyes.
I left you in our room, you screamed, begging me to comeback. Begging me to give you another chance. But all I felt that day was disappointment.
I was not able to go out from the house because your aunt won't let me. I stayed to the other room. I can still hear you crying and screaming.

Later in the afternoon you saw me, you rushly came to me. Hugged me and begged me to stay. You explained that you were just trying to revenge to your ex.
I told you to stop it, that there's no need for you to do that. I gave you another chance. Yeah, i know. I'm stupid.