Marvel One shots (Teen/Platonic)

Loki x Platonic reader- Cutting

Loki knows about Y/n's self harm but doesn't know they've started again
TW:self harm,blood, depressive thoughts

Loki first found out about it when he accidentally saw the scars on her wrist. Y/n had tried to make up a fake story like 'fell in a bush' or 'cat scratches' but he felt otherwise. She had opened up and told him about her problem and without judgement, he helped her heal.

Y/n made efforts to stop hurting or cutting herself and Loki was always there as he knew what it felt like to feel unworthy and a burden to everyone. Y/n hated herself, she always thought of others before her and fought for them only for them to hurt her in return.

Her family was shit and she had no friends other then Loki. A bad habit of caring too much about the person who doesn't care, often hurts the person inside you. No matter how hard she tried, she always ended up helping the person who didn't even deserve a drop of it. She was selfless.

Y/n was doing well until that one night. She had a bad day and it got worse when her mother called her profanities on the phone. She said how Y/n was a disappointment, undeserving, selfish and said that she wish she didn't give birth to her.

It was the last straw. That made her lose it as everything she was doing was for her mother and she still never thought it was enough. She was clean for a month and half and it took just a moment for her to change that. Loki confiscated her blades away last time. So scissors it was.

She cut herself 7 to 8 times on her left arm as she likes to keep it even. They were long cuts, deep enough to not kill her but bleed her out. And then she cried holding her hand. She cleaned the scissors as she bled and then after what felt like hours of sobbing, she decided to clean up.

Loki was making tea when he saw Y/n enter. As always he greeted her with a gentle hug which felt odd to him. She didn't like much touch but she liked his hugs. He pulled away and noticed that her eyes were full of the red cracks caused from either lack of sleep or... crying.

"Are you alright?", Loki asked as he held her shoulders. She nodded yes and walked towards the fridge. "Y/n? What is it?", he inquired again. "Nothing...I just didn't get enough sleep", Y/n slowly replied as she continued making tea. Loki noticed something was definitely off, he was the God of lies of course he saw it.

He kept a close eye on her and saw her move in the kitchen. "Tea's almost ready, don't make more", he announced taking two cups in hands. "Oh", Y/n thought and awkwardly sat across him. He poured them the tea and shifted one cup towards her. While he already started sipping it, she looked like she was in deep thought.

Loki observed her until she was done. She stood up to leave but he grabbed her arm which made her grunt. She immediately pulled her arm out of his hold and almost ran outside. "Y/n!", he followed her but when he reached outside, she had disappeared leaving only one thought in his mind, 'Is it happening again?'.

The day went by and Y/n was on her way home. She was being cautious as to not let Loki find her and ask her questions she didn't want to answer. She quickly made her way to the compound and went straight to her room. There weren't many people around as everyone were in Romania for a mission, apart from Loki.

She reached her room luckily and threw her bag in the corner. She then sat on her bed and checked her phone. The last call was made by her mother and that didn't go well. She got reminded of it again and suddenly the urge came back. Directly going to the bathroom, she opened the drawer and pulled out the knife.

She removed her jumper and was now in her tank top where every scar was visible, even the one's from way back. She took the scissors, went out of the bathroom and sat on the edge of the bed. She took the sharp object and sliced her left arm again just above the scars that were already there.

She didn't count this time as she let the cut reach the fold of her hand, just below her bicep. At this point, her whole forearm was red with blood. It caused her immense pain and she was hoping to end it but somehow she couldn't. She curled up, placing her arms on her knees as she cried out.

And then there was a knock but before she could do anything the door opened. It was Loki. His eyes grew wide as he saw her form sitting on the floor, bleeding. As she looked up, he saw there was blood on her face as she had kept it on her sliced arm. He rushed inside, closing the door on the way.

Loki immediately took her hand and a green light appeared. He tried to heal her right away but it was too slow. So he ran to the bathroom and brought back a towel, quickly wrapping it around her bloody arm. "Y/n...Y/n you could have told me", he almost pleaded to her.

Her eyes were leaking with tears and she didn't speak anything. She dropped her head on his chest and clutched his arm from her good hand. "You know I want nothing more than for you to be alright. Why would you do this Y/n? I'm still here...I care Y/n", Loki assured as he embraced her.

Slowly her eyes began to shut and he noticed how she wasn't moving. "Y/n?", he asked in fear and saw her struggling to keep her eyes open. "Hey, hey Y/n...keep your eyes open. You're not going to die today", he stated loudly and surprisingly she opened her eyes but was still struggling.

He cupped her face and peered in her bloodshot eyes. "Y/n...you are my best friend, without you...where do I belong?", he spoke as he wiped the blood on her face. He kept on healing her until the bleeding stopped. Her crying had slowed down but there was a lump in his throat that wouldn't go away.

"Loki...I'm sorry...I don't know what to do, I'm so sorry", Y/n weakly mumbled to him. "Shh shh shh don't apologize. It's not your fault Y/n... know that it's not. It is this world and it's people that has broken you. And I'll fix everything. The sun will shine Y/n", he reassured as he stroked her head.

The towel ceased the bleeding but her scars were still open. He slowly worked his magic and made them a bit smaller to which Y/n let out of sigh of relief. Once he saw the scars were now closed enough, he cupped her face. "Y/n? Are you feeling ok?", he concerned as he rubbed his thumb.

"Head is hurting, my phone...the scissors... the towel...", she blurted out but stopped because Loki shushed her. "It's ok, rest now, please. I'll take care of everything", he assured again and gently made her lie down on the floor. There was no way he wanted to make her walk.

Loki brought a cushion and a blanket and covered her. He kept her wounded arm out because he had to heal her. "I'm going to use my magic so you can rest now...", he whispered as he gently took her arm. She opened her mouth to say something but again she was shushed.

"We'll talk about it tomorrow when you're feeling better, go to sleep Y/n", he whispered and tucked her in. She hesistantly closed her eyes and after a while, she was asleep. "It's going to be alright Y/n, I'm always going to be there for you", he murmured as he planted a kiss on her forehead, continuing his process to heal her.