Oh Fuck

10

Yoongi

To say that I wasn't hurt when he said he didn't want to pretend to be in love with me for the fans would be a lie. It also hurt that he probably only saw our night as a one-off. It took me a while to calm down enough to make sure I didn't betray myself with tears.

I'd rather appear dismissive than let anyone see my tears. I hate it when people see my vulnerability, they should fear me rather than pity me.

But when Yeosang dropped down beside me and I realized he was crying, my façade of false pride vanished into thin air and concern for the younger man took over.

I didn't know what exactly was wrong with him, but I had to comfort him. Our situation wasn't exactly easy to digest. He was suddenly trapped in a marriage with someone he obviously didn't love... and I now had the person I was in love with with me, but what use was that if he didn't return my feelings?

No matter how you looked at it, we were both screwed. We had no choice but to come to some sort of arrangement, otherwise the whole thing would just get harder.

If I was honest with myself, I couldn't even be angry with Yeosang because he didn't know about my feelings and hadn't hurt me on purpose.

Sighing, I pulled him even closer to me and stroked his hair reassuringly. He turned more towards me, wrapped his arms around my sides and rested his head on my chest. After a few minutes, his sobs became quieter and quieter and turned into the occasional sniffle until that too subsided and I could tell from his regular, calm breaths that he had probably fallen asleep.

At least he seemed to feel comfortable enough with me to relax and that was a start that could be built on.

It wouldn't have taken much for me to fall asleep too, but a soft knock on the door prevented me from doing so. I carefully let go of Yeosang and escaped his embrace, careful not to wake him, before running to the door and slipping out quietly.

Namjoon stood in front of me and just looked at me, you couldn't tell if he was angry, disappointed or confused, he seemed to be trying his best to be matter-of-fact about the whole thing and not freak out.

"Is he in there?" he asked me calmly.

"Yes, but he's asleep. He's not very well. I guess you'll have to talk to me alone."

I said, shrugging my shoulders, and walked towards Namjoon's room, which he shared with Taehyung.

He didn't seem to be there at the moment, but I could hear showering noises coming from the bathroom.

Resignedly, I sat down and waited, waiting for the questions that would inevitably follow.

Sighing, Namjoon sat down next to me and looked at me again.

His silent stare was starting to make me nervous, I'd almost rather he shouted at me, but he just looked at me and sighed from time to time.

"Namjoon, I..." I started, but was interrupted by Taehyung coming out of the bathroom, seeing me and addressing me directly.

"Yoongi, what the fuck?" he looked at me, stunned, before he too fell onto the bed with us."

"Yes, what can I say now... it was an accident... oops?" Shrugging my shoulders, I raised an eyebrow and grinned stupidly. What else could I say? I knew I had totally fucked up.

"Like... how the fuck can you accidentally get married?" Namjoon asked a little louder now that his composure had faltered.

"By being sent to a wedding chapel drunk and not knowing the language 100%..." I tried to defend myself.

"What kind of idiot had to set such a stupid task?" I added, pouting slightly, to which Taehyung gave me a guilty look.

"Hey, how was I supposed to know that you'd get married instead?" he defended himself directly.

"You see? It's Tae's fault, don't look at me so reproachfully." I tried to make a joke, which unfortunately failed miserably, as Namjoon just turned away shaking his head and rubbed his temples.

"What did the manager say, he left earlier with some other guy, they didn't say hello or goodbye. They looked really stressed." Taehyung then asked me and I told them everything.

"So does that mean we're going to move in with the guys from Ateez?" Taehyung then asked excitedly. I'm sure he'd be happy because he was good friends with all of them and they were always hanging out in the Discord while they played together.

But what surprised me was Namjoon's sudden grin.

I looked at him skeptically, surprised that he wasn't grumbling at me.

"Well, then this whole moronic action has turned out well after all," he said and left us alone as he went into the bathroom.

"I'm guessing he's got someone he'd like to marry by mistake," Taehyung said with a laugh.

"I'm sure there's still a catch with the moving in together thing. I don't know, but the managers are probably planning something else, they looked like there was more to come that they haven't told us yet..."