Way of my soul || Poetry

XL. a letter for you

A/N: I knew everything would come to this

I just didn't think it'd be so soon

I hold my breath as I pen each verse, hoping this is the very last curse of writing down everything I could never tell you... it'd hurt so bad but after all our love is something I can never have

Keeping in mind the times that you made me feel alive, when you hugged me so many times and held your hand in mine, stayed up late to talk with me and kept me away from this worlds crimes. I take this moment to cherish every memory full of love and so so tender because after this, I don't want to remember

Because there were also times you hurt me, and you made me wanna die, you told me you always wanted me happy but also made me cry it got so difficult to understand what we were and why

Everyone told me to leave, everyone told me to stay away... One day you were there and one day you were gone away. And I- fell in love with the good of you... So much that I saw no bad in you

Though you were poisoning me and the effects were of arsenic, thank lord I've realised and got the courage to move on before I forgot more logic

So I hope you do good in life
A/N: oh god why is this so hard-

So I hope you do your best in life, I'm leaving, yes, cuz you didn't come back... I begged you to stay each time you left but I was the only one who was doing that... Be it my mistake or not I was so blinded with love I fell at your feet but your efforts were so discreet

So I guess goodbye, though I'm still not ready to let go, all you ever gave me was so much sorrow and though there were times you made me feel safer than anything, I realised you don't deserve me so let's part our ways, you already have, and I am also leaving

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Context: Gosh... I had to write this
Why do I feel like I'm going behind that person again to try and convince them to get back with me and the others even after we did nothing that person still left us

*Sigh

I never change