My Poems

h e a r t b e a t

i don't understand this situation
where we're at the perfect time and perfect place, but all there is is hesitation.
that could've been the perfect moment
the stars aligned, the cosmos agreed, yet courage was not present
all i ever want is to express these emotions
to finally avoid the awkward situations filled with hesitations yet ripened with the temptation to say it to completion
if only i could tell you how i felt
i would, in a heartbeat

given the courage and opportunity,
i would honestly take the chance and risk to see a new reality
it could be negative or positive
but when it comes to you all my decisions are compulsive
because when you come in sight
it feels as though stars collide, the sky shines bright, and everything seems just right
because if i could tell you how i felt,
i would in a heartbeat

all the fear that lurks within me
ever so present, keeping us from what we can hopefully be
i try to muster up each drop of courage
and just when i think my heart is ready, my mind tells me "hey, tread carefully. The heartbreak, be weary, because it's not easy, rather scary, to suddenly get these feelings you have to carry"
and so i back away
because if IF, i could tell you how i felt,
i would, in a heartbeat

the regret is building inside of me
each and every passing day, the impossibility of us being 'us' drives me to insanity
because if only i had the bravery to express what i feel respectfully, i would want to do it carefully for this is war
a battle between a relationship with you, and awkwardness, and I'm losing
Each and every word you say, I check if there's a clue
Maybe I'm too naive and missed the signs of your feelings that are true, but you? God, I would never believe even if I knew.
so if i could tell you how i really felt,
i would, in a heartbeat