Paper Planes | Jungkook ff

In the Middle of the Night

Hope
is something marvillous
but at the same time
really dangerous.
It's a lifesaver
but sometimes
an insidious trap.

It's defined as a single string that can hold you up or a string that suffocates you to death.
The ambivalent characteristic of this mere emotion we feel inside of us is much stronger and intense than anything else
we can feel.
We can fear.
You don't know which side it will show you,
let you feel.
You only find it out if you keep going on.
Life is going on.
And we can't change that fact.

My mind is drunk in deep thoughts as I keep looking out of the classroom window and watching the leaves falling off the trees symbolizing the beginning of autumn.

The way the leaves are blown by the wind reminds me of the way paper planes are flying, fighting to stay above and fly as far as possible.

Full of hope.

And suddenly my mind drifts to Jungkook and I wonder what's he up to.
He wasn't in school today and yesterday either. Since our "date" we didn't see or text each other, which is something unusual for him.
Over the past two weeks I really got used to him being around me and getting involved in almost every life aspect of mine.

But there's something in the back of my head which I can't remember but I know it's something important..
Something I totally forgot..

Oh shit, blond boy.

I totally forgot about him.
We just left him there and walked away, completely neglecting him without even looking back.
He stood up for me, not even knowing my name, and defended me against Jungkook who completely lost himself at that time and I just forgot about him. I should have at least thanked or apologized to him or both.
I look at the clock and realize that it's around that time when I hid myself in that storage room and I wonder if he is there, trying to take a nap again.
I don't know but I need to check it out, that is the only hint I have and the only information about him.
So when the ring bells I quickly pack my bag and rush to the room where I've seen him for the first and last time.
I slowly open the door and try to peek in the dusky room when suddenly someone right next to the door speaks
"What are you looking for"

My heart jumps and I flinch so hard while gasping
"Shit, you scared me. Why are you standing next to the door?"

"I just was about to leave when I heard someone opening the door. I thought you're some teacher and I didn't want to lose my only nap room, so I hid next to the door."

The boy with the blond dyed hair and chocolate brown eyes looks at me, waiting for me to answer him but I just keep blinking and try to regulate my pulse.

When I still don't say something, he goes on

"Uhm, are you here to hide from that guy again or.."

"N-no, no. I'm actually here for you. I mean, I was hoping to find you here."

"Oh" he raises his eyebrowns and looks at me with an surprised expression.

"Yeah, uhm first of all, I wanted to apologize for causing you trouble and then just leaving you behind but at that time I just wanted to get him out of there but I completely forgot about you, sorry. And second, I wanted to thank you genuinely for defending me..", I bow my head a bit as a sign of my gratitude.

He scratches his neck, kinda flustered by my act, and then opens his mouth to say something

"You actually don't have to apologize to me, you know. It wasn't your fault, you did nothing wrong. Your boyfriend was completely insane and out of his mind. I mean, I don't know what happened between you guys but there was no reason for him to be jealous just because we were in the same room. We're in school, it's normal to be involved with other students"