Paper Planes | Jungkook ff

Tears

Olivia Pov
My head feels like I've been hit by a truck.
Guess I'm repaying for yesterday's selflessness and my irresponsibility.
It was the first time drinking that amount of alcohol and I swear it's the worst feeling afterwards.
Not even after coming down from my highs back then I had so much pain like right now after drinking.
But I shouldn't compare these two.
Both are things people should keep their distance from.

Even though I had so much to drink, I still remember what happened yesterday, a bit blurry but still clear enough.
I sigh and hold my head with both of my hands regretting not regretting what I said or did yesterday.
The attraction we had towards each other was clear as day, I mean I used really bold words, which I wouldn't usually use when I'm sober. I also remember his reaction and the flusterness which quickly turned into lust and hunger.
But still, there's no move.
Why isn't he making his move?
What is he waiting for?
I already gave him so much hints and signs and still.. nothing.
This is driving me crazy and I don't know what to do.
Usually, I'm not the type acting so bold and daring, instead I've always been shy and restrained. But this guy really made me force myself showing off traits I've never thought in a million years to ever develop in the first place.

I want him and I thought maybe he wants me to.
Is he just physically attracted to me?
Did I misinterpret him?
After all, he is a guy.
I really start questioning his intentions and feelings towards me and all of a sudden I feel so selfconscious.
I wonder how long I have to wait until life brings some clearness into my messy situation and enlightens me. We can't stay like this forever because it wouldn't be healthy for our mental health in long term. The tension between us grows and grows making both of us greedier and needier and all this waiting is going to kill me.

Drugs couldn't kill me but this guy will..

Suddenly a vibration from my phone interrupts my monologue and I'm surprised when I see it's from Lisa
Lis: Hey, what are you up to?

Ol: nothing, just dealing with headaches from yesterdays hangover

Lis: ugh sounds tough, I hope it doesn't prevent you from hanging around. Lets meet today, we have many things to catch up on

I didn't expect that but am glad that we can just be normal again.
I gotta admit that I missed being with another friend.

We agree on a place and time to meet and after that I'm checking my other messages.
Jk: drink warm honey water. It will ease the headache.

A smile creeps on my lips as I read his text message. I love how caring and thoughtful he is. It feels like you're a worthy and special person which is a rare feeling, considering the events in the past and all the selfish persons I was surrounded by. And I know that his behavior is genuine because even in the slightest dangers he's super careful and attentive and puts himself in danger to keep me safe.
Something I got used to.
Something I want to get used to.

I get up to boil some water for preparing the honey water Jungkook advised me to, so I'll be able to meet with Lisa.

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Jk Pov

After making sure my girl is alright, I decide to go to the gym and kill some time there. She doesn't seem to leave my mind, so I gotta have to distract myself.
The best decision yesterday was to stay sober because even though there was not a single drop of alcohol in my veins, I was at the edge of losing my shit. But it wasn't the right moment and the righ place. If I'm going to take things further, I want to do it properly and genuinely without disturbances like alcohol. At least, this should be something I want to do in the right way.