Escape To Paradise | l.h.

{Wylie}

"Look, I don't know what happened and I don't want to know if you don't want to tell me." Calum beings softly looking at me with sunken eyes and a frown. "But I guessing you told him." He sighs softly.
"I didn't." I suck in a sharp breathe keeping the tears down. "I-I couldn't." I stutter.
"That was his baby too ya know?" He speaks softly but I know his words are meant to be harsh and I don't are fur with him.
Luke deserved to know. I couldn't have possibly made the baby inside of me myself. But I needed time to think. To get myself together properly before I could even think about telling him. Physically, my body feels drained and tired. Mentally, I feel dead. Not only did Luke leave me without a proper explanation but I was careless and caused the worst thing I've ever experienced to happen. I'd never forgive myself for that. Even if I didn't mean to I still killed something that Luke and I had made. I did that and I'd never be able to get over something like this. Not ever.
"Luke loves you." Calum chuckles softly. "He loves you so muc Wylie. I don't know if that's what this is too. That you doubt the way he feels about you but-" I cut him off.
"Why did he do it?" Now the tears begin to spill from my eyes and I can't stop my chin from quivering.
"John had told him that maybe being in a relationship wouldn't work out. Luke didn't want to listen and he didn't for a while. He came and talked to us and pretty much told us what he was going t do." He shakes his head. "We tried to convince him that the band wasn't as important to him as you were but he didn't want to ruin the band for all of us. He said he did what he had to do. He said it would be easy. I know he was lying though. It wasn't easy for him. I think it was the hardest thing for him to do." He breathes heavily. "To let you go."
"I still haven't read his stupid note." I huff.
"You haven't?" He squints his eyes focusing them on me.
"Nope." I shake my head slowly. "I thought it'd just hurt me even more."
"You should read it Wy. I think it would help." He smiles barely but just enough to make me feel a little bit better.
"I'll think about it." I sigh. "Have they said when I'd get released?"
"They said tomorrow if you really wanted to. They said they only kept you over night because you were dehydrated and needed food badly."
"How long are you guys here for?" I question ignoring his annoyed eyes because he knew I wasn't eating or drinking anything lately.
"As long as you want us here for." He grins widely and I was happy to hear those words but also hated them. "We'll keep Luke away from you until you're ready to face him or whatever."
"Thank you Calum." I reach my arms out to him.
He stands up pulling me against his body. I scrunch my face up from the sharp pains coursing through my body but try to ignore them. I pull away smiling at him.
"Were glad you're okay. We couldn't imagine if this..." A pain look rests on his tan face. "Just know that we all love you Wylie."
The next day, I'm being discharged and on my way back home. I didn't know where Luke was and they boys said he didn't come back to the hospital after he ran away from Michael last night. Even though I was mad at him I still worried about him. Even if I didn't voice how I felt. When we stepped in the house, different kinds of bouquets of flowers were sprawled across the house. Literally everywhere. I knew they weren't from individual people because I didn't even know that many people. Liz examines the house just like the rest of us. With opened mouths and shocked expressions. Andrew steps out of the bedroom it's a warm smile I hadn't seen in years.
"Welcome home dangerous." He chuckles causing everyone I the room to laugh.
"Thanks." He hugs me gently and I appreciated that.
"Who are all these flowers from?" Liz asks in a wonder struck type of voice.
"They're from Luke. He left this morning and went back to London but spent all night getting all of these flowers in here." Andrew places his hands on his hips looking around at all the flowers impressively. "Each one has a note. No clue what they say but they're all yours Wylie."
I stand there shocked. I really didn't know how to react. Yeah, they were just flowers for some reason they meant so much more. Especially to Luke and to me. Without a word, I walk slowly to every bouquet. I take every note that was attached to those plastic clear stick things until I've collected all of them. I had to use my shirt as a bowl and put them all in thee because my hand aren't big enough to hold them all. I direct my attention to everyone I the room. The boys were still here, minus Luke. They smile at me widely as does Liz and Andrew.
"I-I'm gonna go up to the room and read these." I force a smile.
"Take your time." Liz smiles sweetly.
"We'll be down here if you need us." Ashton grins and the boys nod.
I sit down on the bed once I lock the door behind me. I drop all of the note in front f me and just stare at each an every one of them. I take a deep breath and close my eyes. I wasn't ready for this but I needed this. One by one I open them. 'I miss you' one said. 'I love you', 'hold on to me'. Some were song lyrics we both liked and even lyrics I had never heard before. Others had compliments. Like oh he loved my eyes or the way my hair looked in the morning or even how he loved the way I sang obnoxiously just for a laugh. Some even had compliments I had never noticed about myself. Like the way my eyes shined when I told him about something I was passionate about or how when I slept I would unconsciously draw patterns with my fingers on his body or how I had a cute little mole on the back of my neck.
It takes me nearly two hours to read them all but I do it. Slowly, yes but I did it. I stack them all and tie a black pony tail around the stack. I place the stack on the desk and realize I still hadn't read his other note. I knew that note was different from these ones. And once again, I refuse to open it without even thinking about it first. Then out of the blue I get an idea. Probably the best one I've had in a while and maybe this idea and thought will make me happy. Will make me forget and just finally and ultimately make me happy.

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So I know there are a lot of typos because is wrote this in like fifteen minutes because I wanted to update and I just didn't feel like going over it. Currently it's nearly 6:40 am and figured since I can't sleep I'd update.
Thank you to all of you beautiful human beings who have taken the time to read my story. It truly means the world😌😘
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