Blue Sunsets and Whiskey. - J.Birch

do you really want to hurt me?

I woke up, I was drenched in sweat what the fuck I went to bed freezing. Whatever. I sit up out of my bed, my stomach feels like it's trying to shove its way out of my body.

"Oww! What the fuck!" I scream, throwing my hands over my stomach as I lean forward. It hurt so bad but I couldn't miss school today, it was Halloween.

I stand up very forcefully as I walk to my bathroom, I had some medicine in the cabinet.

I search through the bottle as I finally find the right one, I pour out 2 of the pills into my hand before taking them dry. I had no time for this right now. I had a costume to put on.

I wobbly walk over to my closet before grabbing my costume off the rack.

I smile as I look at myself in the mirror before my stomach starts hurting again, I sit down against my bed and curl up into the fetal position, my arms covering my stomach as I do.

I wince in pain, I couldn't stay home. Not today. No.

It had been a week since the 'trip' with me and Judd and I hadn't spoken to him since he dropped me off. I sent him a few texts but nothing came of it. I guess he had found some other girl to hangout with. I had been staying home since then, smoking and drinking all day. My room finally smelled like my own.

But I couldn't miss today. I loved Halloween.

I stand up again, grabbing my bag off the ground before I throw the pills in my bag. I was going to need them today.

I put my laptop, binder, pencils, shit like that into my bag before putting my bottle of Jack. I got a new one yesterday and it was still full.

I walk to the stairs before putting on my shoes and packing a bowl. I take a toke before I leave, I cough as I do. First bowl of the day huh?

I walk outside after I finish coughing, I see Jay sitting outside.

"Jay?" I ask, he turns his head and smiles,

"Molly!" He stands up, carrying his bag with him. "Do you want to walk to school with me?"

I smile and nod, I start following him. He's talking a million miles per hour again but somehow I understand it. I respond with a few words after he's done talking each time. He just keeps finding new things to talk about.

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After about 20 minutes we arrive at the school. Jay waves goodbye as he heads inside, probably to the basement. I walk back to the bench where I first saw Judd. I put my headphones in, listening to 'Step on Me.' by The Cardigans. I light a smoke, blowing it up as I do. I wish I wore a sweater, it's so cold outside. Once I finally make it to the bench I sit down, he isn't here. I tense up my body a bit, bringing my knees closer to my chest, my arms closer, everything. I was freezing. I take another hit of my smoke as I exhale it, taking another hit right after. I notice that there was a shadow in front of me so I look up, it's Judd. Of course, he doesn't have a costume on but I also wasn't expecting him too, I roll my eyes and smile at him as I take out one of my headphones.