It was 10:30pm, I was mid-toke on call with one of my old friends, when I got a text from Judd. I had finally set up his contact earlier, 'hey dipshit I'll be at ur house in 30 minutes, be ready'
"Shit Adi I gotta go Judd's gonna be here sooooon!" I screamed as she squealed and hung up, I sprung up and threw on some dark clothing and a sweater, it was cold as hell outside but I didn't have a coat so my sweaters were working, I just layered them up.
I lit a smoke as I put my shoes on and ran outside, even if he was gonna take awhile I wanted to be ready. As he told me.
I took a hit of my smoke before putting my headphones on and turning on 'Runaway' by Lil Peep. There was a thin layer of frost covering everything now and I could see my breath again.
I rested my head on my knees as I finished my smoke before putting it out and resting my eyes as I waited.
'Take me away from here. Everybody so fake. Everybody so fake I swear.'
This song was always my comfort, I listened to it when Tyvin left me, after me and Kaylee hooked up, It was always there.
I hear a honk as I jump and look up. Judd's waving his hands at me now. I stand up as I laugh and get it, I take out my headphones and put them in my pocket.
"Are you ready Molly?" He asks, he looks at me, he has this weird look in his eye. Like hes planning on doing some shit to this hospital.
"I'm so fucking ready let's go." I say, he pulls the van out of my driveway as we start making our way there, he lights a smoke as he's driving and hands me it before lighting another. I take a hit of it as I blow it out the window, we would definitely have to walk a little there because holy shit if we got caught here I'd have one too many warnings on my name.
As I toss my smoke out the window he pulls over to the side of the road, he grabs his bag out of the back before getting out, I get out after him, slipping my phone into my back pocket. He walks around to my side,
"Okay so it's like a 3 minute walk down this road, because if we park too close we will get caught so fast." He places his hand on the window before looking at me, "Want a joint before we walk or while we walk?"
"While, it's cold as fucking shit out here dude." He chuckles a little as he lights it, we start walking away from the van, he puts his arm around my shoulder as we walk.
"So, I'm not good with all the gay-ass feelings and shit but can I tell you something?" He says, I look up at him, he hands me the joint and I take a hit as I nod.
"Well, I know I've been a dick to you in the past and shit, and I really didn't like you for the longest time but I-" He cuts himself off as he takes the joint from me and chuckles as he exhales the smoke, he hands it back. "I think I do like you now."
"Really?" I ask, my eyes light up a little as I look up at him, he smiles. Not one of those fake ass half smiles, he gives me a genuine smile. Just with that I don't need to question if he "really likes me." He does.
Judd Birch likes me.
"I- I might like you too?" I say, it sounded more like a question than a response.
"You might?" He asks, he looks confused more than anything now.
"I don't, know." I say as I look down, I hand him the joint back. "I mean, I like you. I know I do."
I pause, I can't think of how to explain it.
"What?" He sounds so confused as he speaks.
"Okay, let me restart." I take a breath before I speak again. "I do like you, I just didn't- want to."
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Blue Sunsets and Whiskey. - J.Birch
Fanfictiontw- Drug abuse, suicidal thoughts, self-harm, smut, abuse, substance abuse, underage smoking, neglect. (-------------------------------------------------) After a few minutes of silence I break it. "Do you remember me?" My voice is quiet, I don't wa...