Blue Sunsets and Whiskey. - J.Birch

HURT.

I wake up. The ceiling has wires and wood planks, I didn't notice that last night. The small amount of light pouring in from the windows. The curtains take out most of the light. I sit up and rub my eyes before stretching. I throw my covers off and change. Nothing to big, tshirt and jeans. Its mid October so I also throw on a grey zip up sweater.

"Here I don't like this sweater anymore." Tyvin handed me his sweater, his favourite one. It was a grey zip up sweater. He never let me wear it, let alone anyone else. He always had a soft spot for me.

"Thank you Tyvin." I whisperd to him as I put it on, it was really big on me, he laughed at me.

"It looks so cute on you Molly!" He joked in between his laughs.

"It looked better on you!" I held out my hands like a t, he kept laughing at me but he grabbed me and tossed me onto the couch.

"Molly!" I look up, Jays standing there.

"Hey, sorry I just got zoned out thinking about something." I explain back, my face went a little red.

"Someone's outside for you." Shit, I was going out with Cass today.

"Thanks, uh- tell her I'll be out in 10 minutes!" I yelled to him as he started walking back upstairs.

I turned to my desk and started my makeup, I put my lip piercing back in, did my eyeliner, my blush, and my lipstick before putting my boots on and running outside.

"I'm so sorry I'm late Cass I just got zoned out thinking about- uh- someone." I look up in the car and its just her. Thank god.

"Hey it's okay Molly, you're late all the time, one more won't affect me." She chuckles a little at her own comment and I hop in her car. We drive to a small coffee shop and go inside.

"What can I get you guys?" I glance at the cashier, he's a little cute but not enough for me to embarrass myself by asking for his number or anything.

"Just two coffees, two milk two sugar," Cass says, she pulls out a 10 and hands it over, "Keep the change."

She just smiles and we walk to the pick up area, "We're still going to school today right? I have to see what classes I have," I ask, someone else puts up one of our coffees so I take it and hand it to Cass.

"Yeah obviously, were still going to school, we aren't skipping until tomorrow." She rolls her eyes as if it was obvious.

My coffee was put up and I grabbed it and we headed towards the exit, "Are there at least any cute guys there?" I ask again, I feel like I'm talking to much but she was the one who asked to hangout.

"I mean there's one but I'm already talking to him a littleeee-" She says, going a bit red at the end.

"Ahhhheee!" I squeal. "What's his nameeee??"

"Juddddd-" She says in a cute little lover girl tone.

"Judd Birch??" I ask back, my eyes go wide for a second, I knew him when I lived with Jay two years ago and he was actually crazy.

"Yessss!" She screams. "Oh my god isn't he crazy??"

"Nooo!" We both laugh, the whole car ride there is great, its just us laughing and giggling about boys and stupid jokes.

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Once we get to the school I get out and tell Cass I'm gonna go on a walk.

I start walking towards the back of the school, I light a cigarette as I do but honestly what teacher is really going to care for a 17 year old girl is smoking? I take a hit, and I keep walking, I put my headphones in and turn my music up the song, 'HURT' by "1 800 PAIN' is playing, I take hit after hit of my smoke until I find myself on the last one, and I can see a bench not to far away and someone is sitting on it.

I take one more hit before flicking it to the ground and stepping on it as I walk. As I walk closer to the bench I can slowly make out who it is. Judd Birch. He looked the same. The same blue tips on his hair, black shirt, black jeans, white shoes that were stained with dirt. But fuck Cass wasn't lying he was hot. He was also smoking, a joint not a cigarette but either one is fair in this situation.

I walk up and sit down beside him. I pull out another cigarette and light it.

"Can I have one?" I hear a low growl from behind me, it scares the shit out of me. "Jesus fuck Judd." I pull an extra one out and hand it to him. "Give me a fucking warning."

He rolls his eyes and lights it before offering his joint to which I accept.

After a few minutes of silence I break it. "Do you remember me?"

My voice is quiet, I don't want to disturb him if he's in a bad mood but I really want to know if he knows who I am.

"I remember everything faggot." His head is leaned back on the bench and he blows out his smoke. I hand him back the joint after a few more hits of it.

"So you know who I am?"

"Yes I know who you are Molly."

"Cool.. Cool.." I could barely even mutter that out. I felt so awkward, I hated talking to people and it was obvious that he didn't want to be part of this conversation.

"What classes do you have?" He asks, breaking the silence again. One of us always breaks it right after we both finally get comfortable with it again.

"Uh, you can look." I hand him my little slip of paper with my classroom numbers written on them.

"English cool." He says. He hands it back to me, I think that means we have English together? I don't know.

I smile at him and take one last hit of my cigarette before putting it out, "I gotta head to Math but I guess I'll see you next period?"

"Yeah I guess faggot, I don't care."