Broken Into Darkness

Chapter 14 Bella!

I finished getting ready, we were going to a club called Zan. I let Lina help me with my hair and makeup. I normally never do anything like this, it's just eyeliner and mascara. I also either leave my hair curly or straighten it. My makeup Lina did was a smokey eye look. I love it, I look so different, my hair was up in a braid bun with a strand of hair out by my ears.

"Can I put lipstick on you?" Lina asked.

"Um, i'm not a lipstick kind of girl." I said.

"Please, we can put red on? You will look so beautiful."

Red? I don't know, that was my mom's favorite color and she looked good in red lipstick. I don't know if I am ready for that yet. "How about a more natural look?"

"What is wrong with red? You have the perfect lips for red."

I sighed, "I can't, my mom used to wear red lipstick and it was her favorite color. I'm not ready to do that. I am doing my best to keep my shit together."

Lina nodded in understanding, so she went with a light brown. She gave me my sliver hoop earrings to put on. So she turned me to look in the mirror, I could not look at myself. I just got up. She frowned at me.

"You didn't even look to see how you look."

"Oh, uh i'm sure I look fine."

She sighed, walking up to me turning me to look in the mirror. "You want to know what I see? A beautiful soul who is trying to find herself. A caring strong woman who is a beautiful latina."

I took a deep breath and finally looked at myself for the first time in the mirror. She had big round eyes, with thick lashes. A round face with olive color skin, lips somewhat full. She looked different, I can't decide if she was beautiful like Lina says. So I went with she looked okay. I don't see what she sees in me, I see a girl who is broken and trying to survive in a world she don't belong in. So I smiled turning back to Lina and lied my ass off to make her happy.

"Your right, I look pretty good."

She smiled.

"What are you going to wear?" Stella asked.

"Uh, I am not sure. I didn't really bring club clothes. Hell to think of it I don't really have anything. I guess I can wear the shirt I wore to System's concert where I had the mental breakdown." I stated.

Stella smiled, got up and walked down the hall to the bed her and Ethan slept in. She came walking back with a bag in her hand, she handed it to me. I looked at her confusedly, but I took it from her. I just held it, not sure what to do. Does she want me to look at what she bought or what?

"Bella you have to actually open it." Stella replied with a giggle.

So she does want me to open it up to see what she bought to wear. So I opened it up, I pulled out black skinny jeans then a black corset with lace on it and a netted shirt with a black choker that has a half moon on it. They are really cute clothes. I looked up at Lina, smiling folding them back into the bag.

"You like them?" Stella asked.

Lina and Stella seemed very excited. The clothes looked a little too big for them but then again they could pull off anything and look beautiful. Stella picked a cute outfit to wear, I definitely approved.

"Yes they are very cute. You will look beautiful in them Stella."

Stella giggled, "They are for you Bella. Ethan and I bought them for you to wear tonight."