Broken Into Darkness

Chapter 28 Bella!

My eyes opened to a clear white room. By clear I mean the room was empty. I was laying on the ground of this white room. I sat up looking around, where am I? I got up, did I die? I walked around looking for a place to get out but there was nothing. No windows, no doors, nothing. No way out at all. Well hell, looks like I am trapped.

"Bella!"

I froze, that voice I would know anywhere. I turned around there stood my mother. She had her dark brown wavy hair back it was not the long sliver anymore. She was wearing the red shirt with the gold hoop and the black pants we wanted her to be cremated in. She was barefoot, she was really here. I ran to her into her arms that I never thought I would feel again. I felt whole again and safe in her arms. I began to cry because I want to stay with her forever and not wake up from this dream that felt so real.

"Why are you crying sweetie?" She asked.

"Well, I thought I was never going to see you again." I said.

She smiled, "Honey I am always with you even if you can't see me. I'm right here with you always." Pointing to my heart. "You have to let me go, look at what you have become Bella."

"It was not my fault to become a vampire but it is who I am now."

"No, you becoming a vampire is not the problem. It is what you have been doing."

She put her hands on my head, showing me all the terrible things I have done. I killed so many innocent people. I was a monster, I killed Ana, Andrew, and Josh. They did not deserve to die like that, they were just trying to help me and I just killed them as if they were nothing more then a fly. I flinched at who I was becoming.

"You shut your emotions off because you are in pain and you do not know how to deal with it. You have lost me in the world you are in but you never lost me. I have been with you this whole time."

"Mom when you left me, I was broken, now I am just shattered. It was easier not to feel anything. Mom you are the only one who loves me. Now I have no one."

"Bella you are wrong, you are very loved. All your friends trying to help you. Putting their life in danger for you. Your brother and sister. That boy who became a vampire for you because he is in love with you. Your father, they all love you just as much as I do. Raymond, is nothing like your ex. He loves you for you, he has since the moment he met you."

I get what she was saying, that does not mean I want to live in a world without her, if she is not even here to see it. "It means nothing without you mom. You should be here with us, with me. Why did you leave me when I still needed you? I am so dead inside, I do not want to even be a vampire or in this world without you. I'm just tired of being broken."

She hugged me again squeezing me. She kissed me on my forehead. She just held me as I just cried. I never thought I would feel the warmth of my mother's hugs again.

"My sweet Bella you're more loved then you know. Do not let the darkness take over you. You have done enough damage. You killed many people but Bella you need to stop this, don't push them away. Let them help you, now you need to let me go."

I started to back away, shaking my head. "You are not really my mother are you?"

"Yes I am."

"Why would I want to let you go?"

"Not like that sweetie, you need to realize I am gone. Know that I am in a better place. I am safe, no pain and with loved ones. Remember I am never really gone, I am in you, your brother and your sister. I am watching over you guys."