Broken Into Darkness

Chapter 12Simon!

As I lay here holding Lina, I could hear Raymond and Katie fighting over Bella. I am sure she hears all of this, which I am sure it's making her feel like shit. I am pretty sure she is blaming herself for them fighting. I knew this was going to happen when Raymond is the one who insisted Bella to come with. He was literally begging me for her to come. Which I caved in because I wanted to get to know her as well. Bella has this attraction that has everyone around her hooked and loving the energy she gives off. They all liked her right off the bat. Lina and Bella hit it off and became friends right away.

Bella has the most caring heart and a very beautiful soul though she is very much broken. That much was clear, the poor thing tries to hide it. I can see it and so can Raymond, that is part of the reason why he is attracted to her. He has someone who he can relate to with how he feels. She also had her heart broken many times. Katie will use that to get back at Bella because she is jealous of her. She should be happy with my brother he is the best thing that has ever happened to her. I am worried because the ones that will be hurt in all of this is Raymond and Bella. Though Bella will be the one hurt the worst in this mess. I wish I could keep her safe from this but we will have to play it by ear and hope I am wrong.

I looked down at Lina, she was asleep peacefully. She looked so beautiful as she slept, like an angel. I leaned over kissing her on her forehead. I am very lucky to have found my soulmate. She isn't jealous of any girls because she knows she is the only one I want. She don't have to worry about my relationship with Bella because she cares about her just as much as I do. She became family and I would do anything to keep her safe just like I would with everyone here on this bus. I shut of the light so I could go to sleep.

Raymond!

Katie is making me really tired because we keep arguing over Bella. Yes I have feelings for Bella, it is very different but I am with Katie. I don't know why she keeps acting like I am going to cheat on her. I have never cheated on Katie, nor do I intend to do so. I am getting to the point where I think we should break up. I am getting tired of her acting like this because of Bella. I don't know how to tell her that I want to break up with her, I know she will think it is because of Bella when i've been wanting to do this for awhile. The sex is good but it isn't everything, we have no connection. We didn't really have that chemistry when we first started dating. Never really talked much, now it is just all about sex. You can't have a relationship based on just sex, I want more than just that.

Katie was asleep, I could not sleep. I am scared to sleep, I don't want to have the nightmares come. Ever since I met Bella and having her sleep with me she has actually been keeping them away so I can sleep. My mind shuts up, my bad thoughts disappear. I sighed, I got up out of my bed leaving Katie alone. I walked over to Jane's bed, hoping that Bella was right there. I pulled back the curtains and luck was with me because Bella was right there sleeping. She did not look so peaceful this time, which made me feel sad that she is not having a peaceful sleep. I wanted to talk to her, I needed her.

I shook her shoulders waking her up. She opened her eyes, looking so confused. She looked over at me.

"Raymond! What is wrong? You okay?"

"I can't sleep." I said.

"Oh."

She got out from under the covers then climbed out of Jane's bed. She closed the curtains. She surprised me by taking my hand leading me to the sofa. She sat down, patting the sofa next to her for me to sit. I sat down next to her.

"So what is it? You having nightmares again?" She asked sleepily.

"I am scared to fall asleep because I don't want the nightmares to come. I am tired."