Turn Back Time

please read authors note

please let me explain why i havent been updating!

at the end of the school year, the last day occurred. ive been overthinking, then at the very last moment, i finally admitted that i liked my crush. i ran away. he reacted nicely ("nicely"), teasing me funnily because i knew its because he wouldnt stop talking to me, then fourth period came. i explained what his best friend said, bla bla bla "thats wrong", then he asked "you were joking right?" then that hurt. of course i told my closest friends, but i was crying or anything about that, its because what his (not really) best friend said. i brought my hopes up just to break in the end. its like a broken heart, just worse because its like all your hope was gone. then the boy talked to me, explained everything, everything, that i needed to hear. since then, when i remember it, im still trying to fit the pieces in my head. im just waiting for next year to start. its been blocking my creativity, and i have writers block. please understand, im trying to get my life back together for a bit, im still shaken up. i also realized my, erm, x never loved me, uh. that also added to the broken heart. idek, they said i looked like a broken princess, black flowing skirt, dark blue-like-night shirt, tears flowing silently. lmao, idek.

also, I HAVE SUMMER MANDATORY HOMEWORK. YES, PEOPLE HAVE THAT. MY ENTIRE FIRST PERIOD CLASS GOT IT. MANY, MANY PAGES. AND GUESS WHAT? MATH. FUCkIng MATH. I HATE MATH SO MUCH. 😭😭😭😭😭

i promise, ill start making updates soon, but maybe not today, or the two days after. cause for 3 days (starting today), im going camping, so yeah.

ill start updating soon, love you guys, see you soon!

-mariel