5 hours (jenlisa)

chapter 32

lisa's pov

I'm aware and i clearly know that I'm falling in admiration with her. unfortunately i can't. it's just a hard situation for the both of us, Jennie's getting married with hanbin and that's just messed up.

there's a little hope inside of me along with a voice screaming that i have a chance with her, maybe i do but I can't

it's not because i don't want to, it's because i don't want to lose hanbin. he's been the friend and the brother I've always wanted

'so it's just fine for you if you lose jennie?' of course not. she makes everything worthwhile and I'm confused because, i just can't seem to let her go.

I'm sitting outside on this small couch, watching the sunflowers waving in sync cause by the wind while fighting my self, isn't that something?

i took a deep breath and tossed the butt of the cigarette at the trash bin after killing the small lit up fire by  rubbing it on the wall

i can hear the door behind me opened with a creek and saw jisoo with a wine along with her teasing smile

she sat beside me, place the wine glasses along with the wine on the table infront for the both of us and tap my shoulder

"i know you need this, cous" i sighed once again, the familiar feeling coming back again

"I don't know why, chu. why her?" she didn't say a thing and pour each of our glasses some wine, she hand me one glass

"love hits hard, lis. and what's wrong if you love her? she's reciprocating your lovey dovey actions and to be honest i think you have a chance, so why are you scared?" i took a sip and look at her with dismay displays on my face

"you know that she's going to be with hanbin soon, right? and he's much more better than me, she deserves a guy who can give her everything she wants and I'm just this." i look at the view in front of us, sun is setting and my heart is hurting for a girl who doesn't even know that i like her

"but are you sure that's what she likes? are you certainly sure that she likes a guy who can give her those jewelry and cars and those stuffs? are you sure that she doesn't like this goofy bad girl vibe beside me?"

i look at her with confusion display on my face, what is she trying to say?

and somehow she reads my thoughts and sigh deeply

"all I'm saying is, don't give up without a fight lis. you don't know what's on her mind so don't put words in her mouth without actually hearing it from her" she shrugged and somehow that tick some sense into me

but unfortunately somehow that confidence who's trying to show up, got thrown away once again

"you know I can't fight hanbin, jisoo"

" you sure can, you just won't"

"he's my brother"

"but you love her"

i sigh deeply, trying to refuse to acknowledge every emotions that I'm feeling

"maybe it's time for you to choose yourself this time, lis."

after that drama, we decided to talk something lighter to ease the mood that was set down earlier

night is crawling and there's two girls with their comfortable clothes on, rosè with her pink shirt and jennie with her black shirt

she's still stunning, my heart beats abnormally fast when she's near and i hope she can't see how nervous i am

they sat with us

"c'mon, why are you guys drinking all by yourself? don't you see us as your friends anymore?" rosè sighed exaggeratedly while we just chuckled, jisoo stood up and told us she'll just get some more wine glasses for the two gals while rosè told us she's just gonna get her phone

that leaves me with jennie who's peacefully watching the night sky with a contented smile.

"what's your plan after this?' i ask her, it just cames up

"I don't actually know. maybe go back to modeling again or maybe if you have some idea we can travel or go on a roadtrip once again" we both laugh at the thought

when i look at the sky, there's two shooting stars above and the both of us look at each other with a wide smile

"what are you waiting for?! make a wish!" she told me excitedly and i nodded, close my eyes with both hands in a praying position

'i wish she can be happy once all of this is over, i wish she can achieve all the things she wanted after this. and lastly, what ever her wish is, i hope it comes true.

i open my eyes and look at her, she's still wishing with her eyes closed. i smile at her even if she can't see me
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Jennie's pov

'i wish that this happiness I'm feeling right now will never be over, i wish I'm with lisa and be with her through the hard times just like her with me and lastly, i hope we never part our ways and she'll never forget about me"

i opened my eyes and saw lisa looking at me with a smile

"lis?" she hummed in response

"do you think you'll forget about me after this?"

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