Call me your lover

He's still there

,,...don't touch me..."
,,What?"
,,pls don't touch me"
I let my hands fall of her hips and stood there in complete disbelief about what she just said
,,but lover?"
She walked away and seconds later I could hear the bedroom door closing

It took me a while to clean all the mess that the girls made before I looked at my phone again

It was red
,,hey sorry for what happened earlier
I get that you're still mad I would be to... but lover looked scared and you know about her ex so pls talk to her"

I left her on read
I felt bad cause I know that what I did was wrong and I scared her
And the problem was
Now my whole plan wasn't going to work out
And I bought everything
So I guess I have to fix things first

The sobbing came from under the white sheets and it broke my heart to know that I was the reason
,,Lover?"
I pulled away the blanket and she instantly moved away from me
She pulled her knees up to her chest
,,we need to talk"
I sat down at the other side of the bed to not be to close
I could see in her eyes that she was just waiting for me to start talking
,,so...I know that I scared you and I am sorry for that...it's just idk I don't like evermore that much. She really hurt me back in college and I am still so angry about it. I know I shouldn't be I mean it's some years ago but I am a person who won't forget that easily"
No response
Hopefully I was looking at her blue eyes
Still nothing
,,are you gonna hit me now?"
In the most quiet tone possible the words fell from her lips
It shocked me
,,What?"
Again
Her blue eyes filled with tears
,,omg no why would I?"
,,He did."
I shifted a bit closer to lay my hand on her thigh
,,it's over he's not here anymore"
,,Rep. He's always here. He's always with me. I can still feel his touch. He's never gone"

An: short chapter but I lover this one 🤭