Call me your lover

Lay in my arms

An: soo my day was exhausting cause I was in the train for 4 hours cause there were technical difficulties
I tried writing then but the man next to me was staring at me phone and yk that's embarrassing sooo
It's a bit of a angst chapter I am sorry
But I already have some parts of the next one and it'll be really good 🤭

Call between red and 1989
N: you won't believe what I just heard and saw
R: tell meee
N: so I just went to reps apartment and heard moaning and heavy breaths and stuff
But she wasn't opening the door so I just used my key
And as I looked around in her apartment I heard the sounds coming out of her bathroom
R: I mean you know her this isn't something new that she's picking up girls
N: yeah but LISTEN
I talked to her through the door and when I was about to leave I saw lovers stuff all over her apartment
Her shoes, her wallet and stuff
R: omg do you think they are fucking?
N: possible
Omg that tea is so hot I can't believe I heard lover moaning
R: we could have soo much fun with this information

<lover>
I woke up in the middle of the night feeling extremely uncomfortable
Suddenly some random things from my past were back right in front of my eyes
Maybe it's cause I talked about it after pushing it away for so long
Reps long arms were still around my torso with her warm breath on my neck
I could feel my eyes filling with tears as the next flash back kicked in
Oh no just let me sleep now
The crying didn't stop and soon enough I was laying in reputation arm's sobbing in her pillow
I could feel her becoming restless so I tried to hold my breath so she wouldn't wake up
That didn't made it any better
,,mhh...lover you woke me up..."
She mumbled pretty unclear
I again let out a loud sob. Reputation didn't need long to react she instantly pulled me to her chest in a tight hug
,,hey darling...shhh... what's wrong?"
,,idk nightmares..." oh that was such a lie
,,but they aren't real you're safe now!"
Oh but trust me they were real
,,ok..." I mumbled under a breath trying to push rep back for her to lay down again.
I rested against her chest,soon beeing able to hear her steady breathing again
I didn't sleep that night

<Rep>
I woke up to lover shaking a bit in my arms
I pulled her face closer just to see her laying down with open eyes looking very pale
,,omg are you sick?"
,,no..."
,,lover you don't look that healthy to me?"
Her eyes were teary and red looking at me with zero emotion
,,pls sleep for a bit you look extremely exhausted"
She nodded
I put the blanket over her trying to make her comfortable
What was wrong with her? Was it still this Ex? Or was it me?
I looked her deep in the eyes when she finally closed them instantly drifting away into a deep sleep
Finally
I decided to clean the house while lov was asleep
As I finished she was still not out of the bedroom so I decided to sit down with my guitar. My fingers strummed softly against the guitar strings trying to find a good sound
,,...spilling wine in the bathtub...holding your face with the lights out...you kiss my face with the...lights out...we're both drunk..."
I quietly sang the words that came in my mind trying to fit them together like the perfect puzzle
I decided for some lines and started playing them in a calm strumming
,,that was beautiful"
Lover was standing on the stairs in her little pink pjs looking as beautiful as ever
,,lov you look great!"
She smiled
,,I slept for 7 hours it's already 5pm"
I looked at the time
She was right
The whole day just flew away and that's when I noticed
They day didn't feel complete without her

An: poor lover
Btw
My friends mom told my friend that I looked like a model and I was soooo happy when she told me that her mom said that so it's what I keep thinking about😽
Love y'all 💓💓