Call me your lover

Pls help me

1 month later
*Angst
(Would you like me to include TW? Cause I noticed some people don't feel comfortable with reading some stuff)

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I thought of her everyday
Her smile
How she always smelled like flowers
Her eyes
Her hair
Her body
And the way she talked to me
I just couldn't let go
But maybe I should
It's been a month and she stopped texting me or even talking to me at all
Idk why and what happened but she had to have a serious reason
I spent most my nights crying
Talking to friends about it
Or watching old pictures
As I flipped through my book the Polaroids suddenly fell out
I felt my eyes water as I opened the envelope
My fingers started flipping through the photos making every move even harder for me
My eyes were blurry at that point so my vision wasn't good enough to see anything
I let them fall on the ground before snuggling back on the couch
I couldn't sleep in my bed anymore
It's just made me think of her
I still had most of her stuff
She never picked it up
It's like she wanted me to bring it to her.
Wait...

I was packing her stuff in a big box
It looked like I was moving out
I tried to stay as could as I could while throwing her belongings in the box
As I held her pullover in my hands I couldn't resist
I pulled it over the top I was wearing and felt her scent and warmth on my body once again
How I missed her
I talked to red a few times about it and she was shocked
So we're 1989 and midnights when they found out
Red came over a few days ago to bring me some waffles
But honestly
I know which waffle maker made it and that made me cry
In front of red
Embarrassing
I quickly finished after that so she could leave

The box was finally done and so was I
I decided to move on
I know I can't do it but I had to

I laid down in my bed and my body instantly shifted to lovers side
Trying to pretend she was still in my arms
Then I fell asleep...

I woke up with puffy eyes
But I was used to it
So I did my morning routine and tried to look extra good today
Cause i would drive her stuff back to her house
I decided to wear her fav outfit on me but to change the jeans so it wasn't too obvious
I threw her stuff in the back of my car and drove to her house
Her house looked quiet but something wasn't right I could feel it
After inspecting it a bit more I could see a silver car in her parking lot
That was definitely not hers
I was suddenly angry
did she really fuck someone else???
Not that I care...
I got out of the car and the moment I stood in front of her door I heard lover screaming
,,PLEA..ASE STOP"

An: sooo I hope you're all alright
And don't hate me
Trust me I know how it feels I hate when I read story's like that
But I guess I am not better then them
Soo I'll probably publish a few chapters today cause I've got some good ideaaass