I Choose You

Tara

Simon dropped me off at my house and went off to his job at the theater. Something felt wrong in our way back, after leaving Frozen Froggies. Even though he said those things to Christina, he was acting weird, like she had that huge impact on him.
I kind of understand what he goes through when he sees her. He thinks of us, and how it's possible to end up like this. Simon and Christina had a very powerful love story, but she ended it, and he was devastated before we met. Maybe she's a reminder of what may happen to him if that happens, if we go our separate ways. I enter the house after checking there's no cars parked in the garage, everyone's out, and by everyone I mean mom and dad. My older brother, Zayn, went on his expedition two years ago. His destination was Orange and Los Angeles, the two nearest cities. He found Nichole, his other half, in Orange and it only took him 5 months. I think he's one of the lucky ones, most would find there's in a year or so. They both now live in Los Angeles and they go to the same university. One thing I'm sure of, my brother adores Nichole.
I sit in bed for a while and think about what would happen if I decide to make the journey. I can't imagine loving someone more than my love for Simon, but I can't help but imagine what that person may look like, or how he talks or walks. I never think about Simon's looks, I love him for who he is. Besides, I never liked blondes. The kind of blondes who are too good looking, like an athlete's good looks. Simon is like that, he actually kind of looks like Garrett Hedlund. I've always loved brunettes, dark hair and light eyes. But it doesn't matter now.
I go on Facebook and find out nearly everyone is excited about the expedition. What a surprise. How can so many people, even ones who already are in relationships, throw everything away and start a whole new life? I don't believe I'm the only one who won't do this. There must be other people.
I type "Anti Expedition" in the search bar, and I'm amazed of the results. There's a group with about a million member. I ask to join the group but before I'm accepted I check out the posts that some of the people are sharing. Some are saying that they won't even go, like myself, but most of them are saying that they will. They're saying that they want to prove a point, that the more they are, the better. All of them are in relationships and they decided to take the journey with their boyfriend or girlfriend. They believe that even if they do meet the person with the other half, they won't love them the way they love the person they're with, and that maybe after proving that to the world, the whole thing will stop. I smile.
I found a solution.