Him (Wolffang Series)

Part 15

(Warning this chapter has cutting in it if you are bothered by it, please skip over. Thank you)

Addisons POV

I couldn't believe I got caught like that. But I was so upset about here that my mom had just passed that I had forgotten to lock the door. Poor Serenity I knew it scared the crap out of her. She slept with her arm around me that whole night, and the next day, when I woke up, I had to leave the door open just so she was satisfied I wouldn't hurt myself again. She didn't want me leaving the Alpha house, afraid that something bad would happen if I did. I made a promise that I would be back after my mom's funeral.

I sat in my old room, it was quiet. There is nothing like the Alpha house where I had someone there to shear my thoughts with. Serenity had become my secret love. She was so sweet, and I could tell her just about anything. I couldn't believe we were both mated to the same guy an Alpha at that. A part of me had doubts at first, I thought he was just using it as an excuse to get us into his bed. But the way he takes care of us. The way he treats us, no one is going to go that far unless they are mates.

All that didn't really seem to matter now. My mother was gone. I had never been really close to my mom, but she was my mom, and I did love her the same. I felt numb. At the funeral, I sat and watched as they lowered her into the ground and then threw the dirt over the box they barred her in. Then I went back to my old house to collect my things.

"You going back to that boy?" My dad asked

I could tell by the slear in his voice and the brown bottle he had he had already been drinking. The whole house smilt of baby vomit and sulfur.

"He's my mate's father," I tell him

He laughs but it doesn't go to his eyes "that boys fucking using you Addy" he says "You ain't his mate, he just wanted to fuck you and that other girl" he tells me "You're just as stupid as you're mother was" he mumbles "little slut"

I ignore him going into my room, I ramge through my closet, finding a small shoe box. There it was. It was still sharp. I could hear my father on the outside of my door still cussing me calling me every name in the book known to man. Rolling up the bell shelves of my dress, I sink into the floor. Tears stream down my face as thoughts of mom and dad's words echo through my room. Taking the razor blade, I pressed it firmly to my pale flesh until I felt it cut deep into me.

I hold back the cry of pain, I knew that the cut would heal. It was one of the things I liked about being a wolf, which made it easier to hide my pain. The screams from outside continued, so I cut another line into  my arm, watching as the blood dripped down onto the floor. By the fourth cut, my eyes closed, and I fell asleep on the floor in front of the door.

It's the sound of someone pounding on the door that wakes me. "Addy." his voice is so strong

I lean my head against the door as I sit up, still half asleep "Yeah" I mumble

"Addison," he says, "My name again let us in

Oh shit Zac's here, I look down at the blood stain on the floor. "Give me a moment," I call back out

"Addy," he calls again

I grab the closet thing I can find trying to get rid of the spot, but to my dismay, it's not coming up. The door gives way, and Zac and Serenity both step into my room, catching me trying to clean up my mess.

"OH, Addy," Serenity says, coming over to hug me

"I'm alright," I tell her

Zac grabs my arm to look at it. I could tell he wasn't happy that I had cut myself again. "How many times?" he asked me