JJ Maybank X Y/N Imagines

🤍 insecure 🤍

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today was yet another boat day with the pogues.

i have always been insecure but i never really had it as bad as the other people.

i had ordered a couple bikinis on shein and arrived today so i thought i would try them on and wear one on the boat.

the first one was pink with a string tie on the bottoms.

dont get me wrong, it was a beautiful bikini, but when i tried it on my heart sank.

i didnt look like myself.

i looked at my not entirely flat stomach and my face dropped.

i hate how i look in this.

i thought that maybe it was just thr suit. it wasnt.

i tried on the next and then the next and then the last one.

at this point tears were threatening to spill from my eyes and i heard the door open.

it revealed my boyfriend jj.

once he saw me in a suit he closed the door behind him.

"what are you doing? dont look at me!" i shout and cover myself with the towel.

i saw a flash of hurt fly through his bright blue eyes.

i immediately felt guilty, but i just didnt wanna be seen in this.

"are you okay?" his voice cracks a little, "no, jay im sorry i didnt mean to make you cry!" i wrap my arms around his neck and bring him into
my embrace.

"im not crying because of that, im crying because you feel the need to cover yourself up when your the most beautiful girl in the world."

"oh, jay!" i cry into his shoulder as i hug him tighter.

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after a few minutes of crying together, we headed on the boat.

though i loved what jj said and i know hes just trying to help, i dont think anything will make me feel any prettier.

of course jj makes me feel beautiful and loved and i feel comfortable showing my body around him, just not the others.

i was wearing sweatpants and a sweatshirt while we were on the boat.

"oh my god, y/n, how are you not dying!" sarah exclaims as she takes off her shirt to tan.

while everyone jumped in the water, i decided to take off my sweatshirt to get a little bit of air.

i then heard footsteps on the ladder, they were big and loud ones so i assumed it was jj.

but up came sarah and kie.

i fumbled to get my towel but failed before they saw.

"ive never seen you in a bathing suit, y/n," sarah said, "yeah your not what i was expecting..." kie and sarah made eye contact and held back laughs.

my stomach fell and i felt the lump forming in my throat.

"usually jj goes for skinny girls," sarah laughs a little.

"what did you eat today?" kie laughed along.

i then got up and put my sweatshirt on, i walked over to the edge of the boat and called out to jj.

he came swimming over due to hearing my voice crack and red face.

he climbed up the ladder and saw me on the brink of tears.