Isn't The Moon Lovely?

31 - Last Days

shinobu's pov
disclaimer: some events mentioned have not been created in these past chapters, but its because i excluded them, im a lazy person , forgive me lol 😭.
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Nothing felt real. i wasnt crazy, or delusional. i couldn't stop thinking about it. It had been a few days since everything had happened, and i had taken a break from the world. the society. the only people i actually felt okay with seeing were those 3 little boys; tanjiro-kun, inosuke-kun, and zenitsu-kun along with nezuko-chan, aoi and mitsuri-chan but that was it. after that, i allowed no one in my office.

i had no idea what the drama was between everyone. Aoi would talk to me about how mitsuri would yell at tomioka-san non-stop, and about how training with the younger ones had gone, but far from that, all i focused on was the wisteria and how i planned the battle to go out.

i knew i was going to die. i had gotten a lot weaker from douma, and i have no idea if he is actually dead or not because somehow he never dies. and, i had already injected poison in me about a year ago. douma made me even weaker. im still surprised i can still move.

~a year ago

"shinobu-chan! how could you! why would you do this to yourself?" cried mitsuri-chan. i smiled.

"you'll be okay—"

"no, im not okay! your my bestfriend, and you already have death planned out for you? it already feels like death for me!" she clutched onto my arm and starting pushing me around.

i laugh. "mitsuri-chan, its okay, i swear. everyone is fine with it. i just... never got to tell tomioka-san, but i refuse to."

she groans and takes my hands. "promise me you'll atleast make it out to tell me im your bestest friend! promise me, promise!"

i grow silent. "i dont think i can... but ill try my best, i promise!"

~time skip back to present

my hand reaches to my forehead and i sigh. i have to make letters. to the people i love; mitsuri-chan, master kagaya, those 3 little bastards and nezuko-chan, the hashiras, kanao, aoi, and... tomioka-san.

and so, i start writing.

~a few hours later

i finally finish all the letters. gosh, i forget nezuko had turned back into a human. i thank tamayo-san. tanjiro-kun is such a strong young boy now, he has achieved all the forms of sun breathing... and zenitsu-kun is rather quiet now, hes finally mastered thunder breathing and even created his own form, i am so proud of him.

time goes by, and i grow tired. perhaps this all nighter streak must end. i yawn and i quickly get ready for bed before i flop onto my bed and i fall asleep.

...

i awake to aoi shaking me. the sun hasnt risen yet and i rub my eyes. "aoi-chan..? why am i up so early.. what time is it and what do you need—"

she clutches onto me, tightly. "i am afraid to say it, lady kochou, but... master kagaya has deceased. you must go on this battle with his heir's rules and directions."

my eyes widen. i sit up straight quickly and i look around. the letters. the promises. master kagaya, who has helped me, who has helped my sister kanae-sama. whos been here ever since kanae-sama lived, is deceased? that man who i adored so much with all my heart, is now dead.

i try to breathe. this is a dream, right? "aoi-chan, this has to be a dream. slap me so i cant wake up. do it. do it!"

she shakes her head over and over again, her eyes almost squinting. it was real, and this isnt a dream. i had really stopped smiling. theres no more laughter, or happiness, just darkness.

"...you may be excused, aoi-chan. thank you for informing me, my sweet." she nods and she leaves instantly. aoi-chan knows im not in the right state. she knows i need help but she knows i dont want any, so she refuses to say a word. my sweet, sweet, sweet aoi. she doesn't know ill be gone.

i slump against my bed and i sigh. first its tomioka-san... now its... master kagaya. how much worse shall the days before my battle get?

~the days had gone by slowly, and before long was master kagaya's funeral. shinobu hadn't slept in days.

"shinobu-channn! its time to go!" mitsuri comes to me but i refuse to speak for a second.

"...i dont want to face tomioka-san. i feel like my absence hasn't even bothered him since i last saw him.."

she rolls her eyes. "who cares about what he thinks right now? come on, you can't stay at the butterfly mansion because your scared to see tomioka-kun! come for master kagaya!"

i sigh and i finally go.

...

we make it to the funeral, everyone is either at his grave or talking. i havent seen the hashiras together for so long, it felt as though it has been an eternity. i scan around for tomioka-san but theres no trace of him at all. i sigh in relief and i start to walk around.

i observe the place, it was lovely. the cherry blossom trees were gorgeous, there were many everywhere. this is where i want my grave to be, next to master kagaya's and kanae's.

...

time felt like forever until the ceremony started. everyone gathered around, and everyone said their speeches, almost everyone cried and couldn't even make it halfway, but i was determined.

"...and if master kagaya was here last time, i would've said... said... that i hope he will rest... beneath these blossom trees and.." mitsuri cries too hard, obanai had to take her to calm down.

it was my turn. i slowly walk to the stage and i clear my throat before speaking. all went well at first and before i said my last words... i saw him. tomioka-san.

tears watered my eyes as he watched me and i quickly look down. "my master, i wish you peace, and i wish that the heavens are peaceful, and quiet to your liking. i pray that you..." sniff. "that the doves are a sign..." sniff. "a sign of ...peace... and tran...quility." i finally manage to say. everyone gives an applaud and i start crying.

i start crying not because of master kagaya, but because of tomioka-san.

...

the funeral ended. we all mourned. master kagaya's last words quoted "all be happy, do not perish in the last battle, do not fear, and shall you not give up until that monster, muzan kibutsuji is dead."

i had took that in mind. a few hours ago i was crying, and i had calmed down once i realized i was being a stupid girl. i shouldnt have been crying over a boy.

i had been looking for mitsuri so we could both go home, until someone pulled me into a dark room.

it was silent.

"mitsuri-chan?" i called.

silence.

"...kochou."

my eyes widen.

tomioka-san..

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