'It seems as though you are having a miscarriage, but we have also noticed that you are in fact pregnant with twins'
'So both are dying?' I cried. I couldn't stand this.
'Nope that is what is so weird. Unfortunately you are having a miscarriage with one of them, which explains the bleeding, but the other one is healthy as normal, and judging by size and everything you are 15 weeks correct?'
I didn't know what to feel right now. One of my children is slipping away now, yet I still have a child. Judging by Reeces reaction he didn't know what to feel. This day is just a mixture of happiness and sadness and it is confusing me.
'What do I do about the bleeding?' 'Just ignore it. If we try to stop the pain, we will put you and the other baby in danger, the the strongest thing we can give you is paracetamol. I'll take pictures of the two twins for memory. I'm very sorry'
The boys were outside, waiting impatiently. We came out crying, and they all came and gave us a group hug. Times like this are memories, but sadly this wasn't a good one to base it on. We told them the story and they were all crying by the end.
We rung Simon and Dave, and they were all understanding and said we should hold off the announcement, but I decided we should and we will tell them everything that has happened. I need our fans more than ever right now.
I had calmed down by now, and although really upset about the little baby we lost, I'm still so happy that we still have our little one. Reece and I decided to tell all the other acts before we told the fans and they all had tears in their eyes even Lauren. They doctors blamed the miscarriage on stress, so we guessed it was all the trouble with Lauren and she came and apologised and said it was her fault that we are where we are now. We said it probably was her fault because nothing else dramatic has happened, but accepted her apology. At least she feels sorry about it.
It was now the last song I sang on my own and then afterwards it would be me and reece singing together, and I was bricking it. What if the crowd didn't like us together properly and with no way out. Reece hasn't made eye contact with me since before the show, and hasnt seen me when we're both offstage. I guess this is his way of dealing with the miscarriage. Today has been such a day of mixed emotions.
The final song apart from the one we all sing together has been sung, meaning reece and I are about to go on stage. We sung the song and everyone looked confused as it wasn't on the set list. Then it was our speeches:
'London O2, you have been amazing tonight! Reece and I thought we'd give you a surprise, so there you go'
'That's not the only surprise. We've kept something back for a while, about 14 weeks and now we decided we should tell you. As of now, cameras are filming everything we say, and our announcement will be shared on all social medias straight after this show!'
End of years are over so more updates more frequently 😊
