Sara's POV:
'Urgh fine...' was the response from the room. Casey came over and sat next to me, with Jake on the other side of me, and Reece and Toni as far away from us as possible but as far away from each other as they could be as well.
'Well, there has been tension in the house, and I'm not excused from this, but we need to sort this out'.
'We know everything okay Sara so just be straight out, the people that need to be here stay and the people that don't have anything to do with this leave. I don't have anything to do with it but I'll stay here in case anything gets out of hand' I noticed the voice was from Tom. The rest of the contestants leave the room, leaving just Reece, Casey, Toni, Jake, Tom and I.
'Well I'm just as guilty as Toni and Reece are, but why? Why did you guys do it?' Casey grabbed my hand behind my back indicating he didn't want to hear this, but I didn't acknowledge it because he needed to know why. There was a deafening silence, so I felt my anger build up and continued to press on 'If you guys don't tell us why, we don't mind telling manage...' 'It was my fault. I'm sorry Casey. You were out partying and Sara was asleep and Reece and were just messing around. We went for a walk, and then I just wanted to feel loved, just then, and you weren't there, so I kissed him, and I know what I did was bad, and totally wrong, trust me, I cannot punish myself enough for what I did. I cheated on my boyfriend, with his band mate, when he was going out with one of my best friends. I'm so sorry. I have to go.'
She grabbed her bag, while Casey got up and ran after her. Toni was my best friend, apart from Lauren, but Lauren wasn't here all the time with the guys because she knew it would lead to drama, but I just put up with it. How could Toni do this to me?
I looked at Reece for something, anything that would help me with my next words. All I could see was the sorrow in his eyes yet the numbness of what I have caused. 'I'm not going to excuse myself, because I had a part to play in this', I sighed. 'Reece, I know exactly what you're feeling right now, because about 10 minutes I was feeling the same way'. I was gesturing until a pain shot through my wrist, and I grabbed my arm.
Everyone questioningly looked at me, but I shrugged it off. I tried to cover it so that I didn't get sympathy for it. 'I love you Reece, everyone here knows that, even Jake. Jake was there when I needed him most, and a mistake happened. I mean how much more messed up can I get?'. Now he was watching me, and I was trying to finish my point when my old stupid self, started blurting things out 'I mean, my mum and dad don't care about me, and since I joined this stupid show everything has literally gone off the rails-Being in the public eye, being raped, being under stress 24/7, having had the best boyfriend in the world and scared I could lose him at any second because there are thousands of girls wanting to be with him, and then when it did happen, I shouldn't have been surprised, but I was so sure that there was something, and then I ran up to my room, and my phone was smashed, and the glass was there and then the pain and then the kiss and then Reece seeing...'
By now, there were only the four of us. Tom got up to leave but said he'll wait outside, leaving just Jake, Reece and I. I grabbed my arm again, and winced at the pain. I didn't know where I was going with this, but all my emotions were out- they may be in a jumbled pile, but they were out, so I sighed with relief. 'I'm sorry, this was a bad idea'. I got up and walked towards my room.
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