I felt so bad- I had a feeling that Reece didn't want this baby, and I was undecided. I've always wanted a child, but then again, it will ruin my whole entire life, as well as Reece's. He said he'd be here for us, but will he? I mean he's sixteen and I'm seventeen, we should be allowed to go out, have a drink, go to clubs, not stay at home with a child. My head keeps repeating ' he's 16 what have you done?', but it's happened to both of us.
I snapped out of my trance, Reece had clicked his finger and tilted his head like a confused puppy looking at me worriedly. I gave him a fake smile, but pulled it off to look genuine. He still looked at me worriedly, so I got up and left the sitting room and walked into the kitchen. I can't stand to be around Reece anymore, because all I feel is guilt for him, and me, but I really want this baby.
There were some washing up that needed to be done, so I did them, and after stood by the sink just staring out the window onto our garden. It was winter, and there were a few speckles of snow falling to the ground. This is a great start to a new year isn't it? Less than a month in, and I'm already pregnant!
I felt a pair of arms snake around my stomach, and I turn my head to see Reece beaming down at me. 'Remember, I did say I'd love to have mini Brooklyn's and Bibby's around the house' 'But isn't it too early?' 'not unless you regret it' 'I don't, but I feel bad ruining both our futures' 'but we didn't ruin it did we? Our futures have just changed, that's all. I'm going to be a great dad to this little baby' 'I know you will be'. He smiled, and pecked me on the lips.
We both sat down, and sorted out our baby hopes: 'Girl or boy?' 'Boy obviously I want him to be a great footballer just like me' 'reece, you're not all that though are you?' 'Don't go their mrs' 'but I'm not mrs yet am I?' 'You just went there' 'You can't tickle your innocent child can you' I stick my tongue out. God, I was so in love with this boy.
Then, I remembered what Jake said 'Reece! If Lauren or Simon find out!. We're not allowed any contact until after the tour' 'well, it's his loss isn't it?' I was already signed, so I was okay, but Stereo Kicks are relying on being signed by Simon.
Just then, Lauren walked in, and I got a blanket and wrapped it around myself, and I put the TV on 'This is my house you know, you don't live here' I said a bit too smartly 'well I was checking to make sure that there was no funny business going on' 'no that's just what you want isn't lauren. I thought you were my friend, until I find out you've been trying to get the boys out purposely. What do you expect me to be like?'
'I'm 16 Lauren, I'm younger than you. Do you really think I want some child screaming and waking me up in the middle of the night? Do you really think I want to throw my future away to spend the rest of my life caring for another person at my age. I want to be able to go out, get drunk, live my life a little, but I can't with a child, so why would I even take the chance to do that?'
I was shocked. I knew it would come out, but not like that, especially from Reece. I managed to croak get out and slamming the door without visible tears, then ran up to my room, and cried myself to sleep.
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The long awaited chapter finally here 😂
