Betting On A Boy // Hyunlix

Realization

"I'm done." I sat on the edge of Minho's bed, staring at the ground blankly. "I don't wanna do this bet anymore."

"What did it for you? You finally figured out you might actually have feelings for him?"

"It's more than that." I shook my head. "He told me everything, Minho." I bit my lip, getting emotional just thinking about it. "I can't even live with myself."

He sighed and spun around slowly in his desk chair. "What they won't know, won't hurt them. I don't wanna lose Jisung."

"I can't lose Felix."

I went home last night and couldn't sleep. Everything he had told me about his life was spiraling around in my head. But everything started to come together for me.

I liked him the whole time and I didn't want to admit it for two reasons. One: it would be fucked up to start a relationship with someone that started from a bet - obviously Minho doesn't much care about that. And two: I didn't want to put my heart into someone who didn't understand me. I have my walls up around almost every person I know, that included Felix until now. I feel like I can tell him anything and he'll never judge me, he'll be there to support me. He's everything I've ever wanted in someone. I was just too much of an idiot to see that.

"Oh, so it's that serious now, huh?"

"Minho, I really like him," I whispered, much more genuine than when I said it to Felix. "It just hit me like a ton of bricks."

"Did you tell him about your sister?" He'd know if I was telling the truth based on that.

"Yeah." I nodded. Minho heavily exhaled, knowing just how big of a deal that was. "We need to make sure neither of them ever find out about this bet."

"Well, you told Wooyoung and San, which means Yunho and Mingi know. We need to pray that they didn't tell anyone else."

"I fucked up so bad, holy shit," I stressed, running my fingers through my hair.

"Jisung knows about Karina too."

"What?" I panicked. "You told him?"

"No, are you kidding me? I even said it wasn't true just to cover for your ass."

"Do you know if he told Felix?"

"He did."

"God, I'm gonna be sick," I muttered, suddenly feeling nauseous.

"Felix didn't believe him though. He said you'd never do something like that to him."

"And I wouldn't." I shook my head, keeping it rested in my hands.

"But you did."

"And I regret it, I regret it so fucking much." I fell back on his bed and stared at the ceiling in utter disbelief. I'm really the world's biggest asshole.

"Are you seeing him tonight again?"

"Of course I am."

"Do you realize you've spent every single day with him since the first party?"

I actually hadn't realized that. "Holy shit."

"Were you just in denial the entire time? Was that it? Or were you really that committed to this bet?"

"It hit me when we were in the mall yesterday." I nodded. "I definitely upset him and I wanted to jump off a cliff."

"What'd you do?"

"Like the dumbass I am, I was like you work all the time after he told me he doesn't have money to buy things. Then he asked if we could stop talking about it and I immediately felt like shit."