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note: Sorry sa matagal na update. Sorry din kung lame tong chap na to. I've been drianed lately. I don't think makakaya ko pa.

Baekhyun's

Nandito kami ni Kyung sa condo ko. I'm treating his cheeks. Sorbang lakas ng pagkakasampal ni Yeol kay Kyungsoo. Ang pula pula nang pisngi niya. Fucking Chanyeol, why the hell did he do that?!

"Baek." I heard Soo whispered, followed by another one. "I knew Baek." I felt my heart poud at the statement. I looked at him, nervously stopping in my tracks. "K-Kyungsoo." Sabi ko. I tried to hold back tears, knowing what he was talking about.

I didn't feel any guilt whenever Chanyeol and I did it, but now, I feel guilty of all the things I've done. Sa lahat ng masamang bagay na nagawa ko. 

Pinunasan ko ang mga luhang pumapatak galing sa aking mga mata. "I-I'm sorry Soo." I managed to mutter, lips shaking, waiting for a slap to come across my face. Pero walang dumating, instead, a pair of arms hugged my shaking body. Kyungsoo pulled me closer to him, his embrace giving off a very comforting warmth. "I'm s-sorry Soo." I said as I hugged him back.

Why is Kyungsoo such a good person? If he wanted he could slap or punch me, but he didn't. Wala siyang ginawang masama sakin, instead he hugged me. "Hindi kita sasampalin o susuntukin Baek. You're like my little brother. Kahit anong sakit ang ibigay mo sakin, hinding hindi kita sasaktan. Even if the pain for me is unbearable, I don't want to hurt you, nor see you hurting. It's because I love you." Kyungsoo said, stoking my hair in a comforting manner. I sobbed louder as I tightened the hug. I could feel my clothing getting wet. Kyungsoo.

I loosened my hands and eventually let go. My hand was shaking as I held his close to my face. I stared directly to his eyes. I started to slap my face using his hand. Malalakas na galaw ang pinakawalan ko, I want to feel the pain, but I know this haven't even scratched the surface of the pain he's feeling.

Pilit na binabawi ni Kyungsoo ang kamay niya pero hindi ko ito binigay. "B-Baek! Stop it! Y-Your cheeks are bleeding!" He uttered, panic clearly heard in his voice. I released a weak smile that quickly faltered, replaced by tears. "L-let me feel the p-pain. A-ako naman ang m-may k-kasalanan." And with one hard slap, my body curled as I embraced my knees.

I felt Kyungsoo's hands cup my face making me look at him. His eyes widened as he tried to open his mouth to speak, but nothing came out. Instead, tears streamed down his puffy eyes. His hands embraced my body, sending warm comforting heat to me. "B-Baek."

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I felt my body tremble as I played with my fingers. A few moments later, my eyes darted to the doorway of the cafe. His tall figure scanned the room before completely going in. "Ano bang pag-uusapan natin?" He said, voice showing no trace of emotion whatsoever. Umupo siya at tinignan ako. I shifted uncomfortably before I uttered his name. "Y-Yeol."

"Don't you dare say my name, bitch." A small gasp made it's way to my mouth. My body trembled even more. "I---." Cut off not even in mid sentence,I sank onto my seat as Chanyeol spoke.

"You know what? I don't have time for this crap, bitch." Sabi niya, he didn't even bother to hear me out. I held back a tear as I sipped from my drink. Pausing for a bit, I gathered all my strength to utter a sentence. "Itigil na natin Yeol." Sabi ko.

A couple of minutes passed, silence consuming us, before I heard him laugh. However, I couldn't quite define the emotion in it. "Anong namang ititigil natin? What would we stop? Huh, I want you to know this itsy bitsy little fact Baekhyun. There was never an us. And there will never be. We were just mere friends with benefits. Just mere vessels to our release." Unti-unting tumulo ang mga luha ko sa sinabi niya. My heart's breaking.

I was about to speak when he stood up and said. "Kung wala ka nang sasabihin, aalis na ako. This isn't worth my time." And walked away. Not knowing what to do, I was stranded in my thoughts until I realized that he got out of the cafe already.

Nagmadali akong tumayo at tumakbo patungo sa labas. Finally getting out of there, I scanned the place to find his figure in the crowd. Medyo nahirapan ako gahil sa height ko pero nakita ko rin naman siya. "Chanyeol!" I called out his name as I ran towards him. He seemed to stop in his tracks but continued. I called out again. "Yeol!"

I was almost in the midst of grabbing his shirt when someone bumped me, causing my figure to stumble back. Nagsorry siya sakin at tinulungan akong tumayo bago simulan na namang hanapin si Chanyeol.

Nang makita ko na siya ay tumakbo agad ako. He was on the other side of the road. "Yeol!" I called out again as I stepped a foot on the road, stopping for a bit. Tinignan niya ako at agad na tumalikod. I held a breathe, looks like I have no other choices.

I launched myself and ran as fast as I could. Malapit na. Malapit na sana ako sa kinaroroonan niya nang. "Baekhyun!" A voice called from the back, making me stop at my tracks. I shifted my eyes to the person and saw Kyungsoo, eyes wider that before.

*BEEP* A loud sound rang through my head. Oh God. Lumipat ang tingin ko sa sasakyang patuloy pa ring tumatakbo. I felt time slow down as I stared at the approaching car, bewildered. Memories started to flash in my mind. Is this it? The end of me?

"Baekhyun! Move! Please!" Was the one last thing I heard from Kyungsoo before an extremely pang of pain hit my body. I felt myself fall back to the ground, my head was wet and my vision was turning blurry. I groaned in pain as I attempted to move. I'm paralyzed.

A pair of hands cupped my head, slowly lifting my upper body up the ground. I looked at the person, even if my vision was blurry, I knew it was him. Craning my head, I looked at the other side and saw Kyungsoo with his hands on his mouth.

I smiled weakly at him before turning back to Chanyeol. I could feel the darkness eating me up. Hindi na ako magtatagal, alam ko yung. I just wanted to say one last thing. "Ch-Chan... Y-Yeol." I breathed out. Tears fell down my face. "S-Saranghae." And with one last smile, my vision completely turned black.