The Soul Factor (BL)

Chapter 14

"Why do you weep now?" I remember.

Cassian's pov:

"Roux!!" I stopped while glancing at the sky with a silent groan. My best friend, Gahazi called. He reached me and held my shoulder. "Where are you going?" I shrugged while trying to hide a smile on my lips. "Come on."

"I haven't even told my parents yet." The people I trust the most, why trust him?

"I thought you trusted me more." I scrunched my face, he tried to slap me but I held his hand. I am still faster than him. "I'm hurt you don't trust your only close friend."

"You wouldn't be." And that is the truth, he pushed his way into my life. I don't get close to people and ever since I was announced as the one with the strongest soul in the universe most keep their distance from me except him. He has been here for me through everything. I got to trust him but this was something I didn't want to tell to anyone yet.

"Okay fine...go on." He turned to leave but I called his name.

"I found someone." I admitted shyly, rubbing my neck. "He...I think I am in love."

"Who is it?"

"Asclepius." He nodded with a smile before pulling me into a hug. He almost crushed me, he seemed more excited than I was.

"Raux...finally you let someone into your heart. Finally!!! This deserves a celebration...you should bring him-"

"No...I want to wait." This is why I wanted to keep it a secret. Everything might overwhelm him, I haven't even revealed exactly who I am to him. "I want to make sure he is okay with everything before I overwhelm him with my life."

"I totally get you." He pat my shoulder. "Were you on your way to him? Is that why you were sneaking away?" I nodded. "Well then go, don't make him wait." I laughed before I started sprinting through the forest towards him.

Asclepius, my love. I'm coming to you. I ran towards the cliff we decided to meet up. I could smell him but I pretended not to as I heard him sneak up to me from the back. As soon as his hands held my waist I pretended to be startled. "Who is being a sneaky rabbit?" I teased.

"Hi." He said in a breathless voice that made my heart melt.

"Hey." I locked both of or hands together before pecking his delicate fingers. "I just told my best friend about us."

He paused. "Really?"

"Yeah, I wasn't ready to tell anyone yet but I guess he is an exception." I pulled him so that we sat on the rocks. "He is a good demon... it's rare to find. But I found you two."

"When do I get to meet him?"

"Anytime. It would mean the world if you two met and hit it off." I pulled him closer. "Though I love you more...he should never know about it." He smiled and did the invisible zipping his mouth and throwing away the key thing.

I pecked and sniffed his cheek before taking him in. He was the most handsome man I have ever met, the way I love him was beyond words. I see everything in him, my entire future.

"Will you marry me?" I threw the ball out, I have wanted to ask the question months ago but I was worried he might say no. Today I am risking it all and I have already told my best friend about it.

He stood up, completely shocked. "I- you-" he looked around as if I was talking to someone else. "Yes! I- yes!"

I felt so happy....

My eyes flew awake. I sat up and held onto my heart that was pouring in pure excitement as if I had received the greatest news of my life which was completely true...according to the dream I had.

A loud whimper made me hiss, feeling a headache setting in. "What is with you now?" I was still trying to fight off the intense emotions that had consumed my entire being. Everything was not correct, I could not have been in love like that.

"That was a week before he died." I felt fear sit in my chest. He died. I couldn't pretend to not care even if I tried because I actually did care.

"How did he die?"

"Gehazi." His best friend? "And now his uncle."  What? I got off the bed and started pacing with so many thoughts in my head.

"We should kill him...you're stronger."  We walk into hell and finish the bitch. Then the problem is solved and he doesn't get a chance this time.

"I used to be, he is a lot stronger now." And with that, he disappeared as if he was no longer inside of me though I can still feel his sadness. All his emotions were washing up on me quite a lot lately.

I went into my bathroom and took a cool shower. My body felt relieved and by the time I was cooled down, I walked out of my apartment and into the street.

I watched various people pass by me, today I wasn't watching anyone in particular just ignored all and kept on walking aimlessly my mind swirling.

I remember every emotion I felt in that dream, it was my first time feeling an emotion that deep. Like I could kill myself if he wasn't around...that I loved him so much I was willing to stop the entire world if it meant to see him again.

I held onto the wall as the pain increased in my chest. This was not supposed to happen. I never developed this kind of emotion. I am incapable of feeling mercy or love or guilt yet it was killing me to know I didn't save him.

It wasn't my fault, it was Red's fault. He was just influencing me, I needed to cut him out. I tried to walk and push myself forward so I could put an end to this but I couldn't not because Red was holding me, no but because I was shaking so hard I could hardly begin to walk even if I tried.

"Cassian, What's wrong?" I was surprised someone knew me. I glanced up to find Sami, I frowned pushing him away as I tried to get up again but I still failed. I was heaving at this point.

"Get the fuck away from me you demon."

He looked shocked by my response but still didn't back away. "Are you okay? Do you need a doctor?" He looked around as if trying to find someone. "Where's Sarian?"

"I said get the fuck away." I was already emotionally unstable. So unstable all I wanted was to attack and kill him right this instant. "Pretend you never saw me and continue where you were going." I finally got the energy to get up. I continued walking, knowing it was a bad idea. I shouldn't continue but I felt like if I didn't distract myself I might lose it all.

Someone grabbed my shoulder, causing me to stop walking. "Cassian go sit down. I've already called Sarian he should be here soon. Let's wait for him....okay?" He said in the same voice one would talk to a stubborn five year old in.

A red fog shot out of me and pushed him into the streets. Who the hell does he think he is? I attempted to walk up to him and add to his pain but someone called my name.

I glanced back to find Sarian. My heart started beating so hard like last time in my dream. The dream fought to comeback....blood. All I saw was blood and myself yelling out in pain.

I felt my heart break as I took a step away from him before disappearing.