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ANOTHER BEGINNING

*PRESENT DAY: 3rd December, 2023*

*BACK TO THE PREVIOUS: January 1st, 2023*

Dear Reader,

Hi, it's me again. I'm an ocean of emotions, and from the 3rd of December, they kept flowing like waves, taking me back to the previous time, starting from the first day of January. On the 1st of January 2023, I felt like the same person in a different day because nothing had changed. The first day of the year lacked that new beginning excitement, and I was just there. I didn't want to ruin the atmosphere, so I acted like I cared, but deep down, I wanted to disappear like a bubbles in the air.

At the top of my lungs, I screamed, "Happy New Year!" I shared one-time hugs with strangers, as if we were all eager to experience something new again. They were excited, but I was restless because I didn't know what to expect. In 2022, happiness was rare, so I wondered if 2023 would bring me more problems. I knew I wasn't ready for the challenges ahead, still recovering from a bad year.

I needed repairs because I was in despair. Many days in 2022 left me so depressed that I couldn't even shed a tear. I wanted to be spared because I was scared. I had so many fears that were souvenirs from bad experiences. I didn't want them because they were fears, not my friends, but they followed me here and there.

Dear Reader, On the first day of January, I was curious. I wondered what the new year had in store, and I hoped it would be better than the last one because I struggled to remember how to stay strong.