My scared love

Chapter 30

“I've got the scars to prove it,” I say with a forced smile and he looks hurt “For…For how long” he asks “Ever since you were sent abroad” I sigh looking away from him. “Why did you never tell me,” he asks and I can see his hands shaking “You think the world of them. I didn't want to ruin that... I knew once you left it would go back to the way it was...I was scared  I tried to kill myself, but Jay saved me” I look over at him and he’s hugging Dani.

“Zealand come with me, I can protect you,” he says and I look at him shocked, “Wh..What?!” I shake my head “I..I don't want to Jay is here. I want to stay with him” I say and he grabs my shoulders, “But it's not safe here! Please listen to me I don't want you to get hurt!” he shakes me, “Hey cut it out” I try to pull back, “No Zealand this is the least painful option so please listen to me” he grips harder, “I said cut it out!” I push him away. “Woah you have some power to you” I hear a familiar voice next to me, I feel myself getting pulled back.

“What are you doing here” I look up and see Jay’s arm wrapped around me. “You know exactly why I'm here” I look and see Anderson, “I can't deal with you two right now, you need to leave, I don't trust you,” Jay says glaring at Anderson. “Wa..Wait” I mutter and Jay looks down at me, “Wh..What about Dani?” I ask and he raises a brow and me. “Yeah despite what you think I'm still here brother" Anderson rolls his eyes "I'm more here for her than for you ever have been" Jay growls, I look up at him.

“You gave up the right to be her brother a long time ago. And you-” he pauses when he looks at me. “...Damn it" he mutters "She's down by the lake” Jay sighs looking back at Anderson, “Olie I'll be back” Anderson pats Oliver's back and starts walking to the lake. “Zealand come on listen to reason” Oliver sighs and I look down, “That's not her name.” I hear Jay and I look up at him, “What? Yes, it is” Oliver scoffs, “It's fine he doesn't have to plus he doesn't even know” I sigh and Oliver looks confused.

“What don't I know” he asks “Umm….Zealand was actually supposed to be my twin’s name….but they named me Zealand because well they preferred him…over me” I half smile and Jay grabs my hand “I'll call you Zara then” Oliver nods. “Thank you Oliver” I give him a half smile, “Do you really not want to come with me...Zara” he asks “Yea really… I like being here with Jay...i feel more safe when I'm with him ” I squeeze his hand.

Oliver looks at Jay and then back at me, it's like his eyes are saying something but I don't know what it is, “Okay…I understand, I love you kid” he smiles softly. I let go of Jay's hand and hug Oliver, he hugs me tightly, “I'm sorry Zara” he whispers, I let him go, “Look I have to set up for a mission so… I should go” he pats my head. “Oh okay…thank you for coming to see me,” I say and he smiles “Of course I'll always be here for you…I won't let anyone else hurt you” he looks at me for a second and then at Jay.

“Make sure to make the right choice to keep her safe” Oliver sighs and starts to walk to his car, I look at Jay who looks at me with pain in his eyes, “What’s wrong babe” I grab his hand. “I'm…I'm just worried is all…I love you Zara” he puts my hand on his cheek and kisses it, “The sun will be setting soon…how about me and you go to my room” he pulls me close, and I rest my head on his chest. “You don't want to talk to Anderson?” I ask, “No…I'll have other chances to talk with him…right now I want to spend time with my girl” he holds me close.

“Okay…let's go to your room then” I smile,  he lets me go still holding my hand. "You mean our room" he smiles as  we walk to the house and it's bigger than the other one, “Woah this is beautiful” I smile and he looks at me with a small smile. “Yeah…Everyone is getting situated right now so we can be alone for a bit” he picks me up and kisses me, I smile on his lips and kiss him wrapping my arms and legs around him, I can feel him walking me around he pins me to a walk and starts kissing my neck.

“Fuck…” I groan I see him throw a door open. He walks us into the room and quickly slams the door, I grip his shirt tightly when he starts sucking on my neck, “Ngh…Jay” I groan, he gently places me down on the bed. “I love you so much” he looks up at me on his knees, “I love you” I gently touch his face, “Let me take care of you” he unzips my jean shorts. He watches me as he slowly takes them off, I cover my very flustered face “Don't…let me see your face baby” I feel his hands running up and down my thighs. I slowly move my hands away and he kisses my thighs, gently kissing my scars.

“Tell me what you want baby….I'll do anything to please you” he looks up at me so seductively. “I...I want…you to…fuck me” I whisper trying not to look at him, “Then I'll do just that” he gets up and takes my shirt off, he leans down, and sucks on my neck, “Mmm…T.. Take it off” I groan tugging on his shirt. I feel his hand snake behind me, and my bra pops off  I watch him step back and throw his shirt off, “Damn babe you look so hot” his eyes scan my body, “Then…Then come here” I say and he smirks.