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Tom pov:
I couldn't sleep I needed to know that she was ok. She could be mad at me and hate me the rest of her life and I would be ok with that as long as I knew she was ok.

I tossed and turned all night trying to sleep but I knew it was impossible. I needed answers on how she was. I got up to get some water but when I walked out of my room I saw her room.

I don't know what made me do it but I walked towards the door. I placed my hand on the handle and turned it. I walked in taking in her room. It smelled like her. I know that sounds weird but it was comforting.

⚠️I looked at the pictures she had put up. They were all of her mother. I remember when I was at my lowest because of my mothers passing. I even tried it to do I could be with her but something told me not to. I never even told bill about my thoughts on attempting.

I was ashamed that if anyone found out they would judge me. I placed my hand on one of the pictures. It was her favorite of her and her mom when she was little at her birthday.

I felt a tear roll down my cheek. One after another came and then I couldn't even stop them. I sat on her bed trying to figure things out but it became to much. Sleep eventually took over me and I was asleep.

Bill pov:
I woke up upset understandably. I wanted to check on Tom and see how he was feeling. When I went into his room he wasn't there. Did he leave? Or did he sleep somewhere else?

I saw that presleys door was open so I looked in curious. I saw Tom passed out on her bed. I'm sure he had a hard time sleeping last night. I still wanted to know why he felt so guilty and why Presley did it.

I wanted to go see Presley today but I was scared of what news we would get. " you're worried about him aren't you?" I turned around to see Gustav behind me.

" yea I don't want him to go back to that place he was in when our mom died. He thought he hid it but we all know."

" what he needs right now is for us to be there for him. He'll want his space but it will just drive him back."

" yea I'll wake him up and we'll go see her."

" ok" Gustav walked away leaving me there with Tom. I walked in and sat on the bed. I placed my hand on his shoulder and gently shook him to get him to wake up.

" hey Tom let's get up ok. We are all going to see her."

" Tom Presley needs us come on."

When I said her name he woke up. His eyes were puffy. His eyes were so red. " I messed up bill. She'll never forgive me and I'll never forget myself. I think it's best if I don't see her."

" that's not true Tom she needs us and so do you."

" I'll only make things worse I always do."

" Tom that's not true and you know that."

After some convincing I convinced him and he went to take a shower and get dressed. I headed to the living room to wait for him so we could all go.

" hey how are you feeling?" Georg said as I sat next to him with Ansley on my other side.

" I'll be better when we know if she's ok."

" I know I don't know her very well but I really wanted to. I hope she's ok so we can get closer."

" yea you just have to be gentle with her."

I had called her job earlier saying something happened to Presley and that when she was better she would be back. Her boss was so kind he told us that she could take her time and when she was ready her job would be waiting.

Tom came down the stairs and we all looked in his direction. His eyes were still bloodshot. He looked so tired. " you ready Tom?"

He didn't say anything he just nodded his head. We walked towards the car and I sat in the back with Tom. It was a quiet drive. We didn't listen to music or talk.

We had finally arrived and we're headed to the entrance. I saw the receptionist and headed over. " we are here for Presley."

" I'll contact the doctor. He'll Inform you on her condition and then you'll be able to see her."

" ok"

I sat with everyone and waited for the doctor. " are you all here for Presley?"

" yes." Gustav said.

" ok so she was In very critical condition. We had to pump her stomach and start her heart back twice. We lost her a few times but she is steady now. She was very close to not making it. She is in an induced coma right now. We aren't sure if when or is she will come out of it. All I can say is visit her, talk to her, and don't give up on her."

Tom pov:
When I heard what the doctor said I knew I wouldn't be able to see her. It was my fault she was in this position. " are you coming Tom?"bill said standing up.

" I'd like to go by myself if that's ok."

" yea that's fine."

I needed to talk to her and tell her what actually happened. The only way I'd be able to tell her is if she wasn't awake. How much of a coward was I. I couldn't even tell her face to face.