"I still love you..."
Katie says.
Ellie looks into her eyes, holding her tightly.
"Do you... still love me...? Despite all the drama that happened just now?"
"I always did. I knew that I just didn't say it."
Ellie's eyes widen.
"You... always did? Even after everything that happened, everything I've said to you, you still love me?"
"W-when you broke up with me I tried to kill myself..."
Ellie's eyes widen and she looks absolutely horrified.
"You tried... you tried to hurt yourself the day I broke up with you? When I said all those things to you? You tried to kill yourself just then?"
"Yea what's the point of living when you are gone. You were the only thing keeping me alive."
Katie says almost in tears. It feels good and bad at the same time telling Ellie everything.
Ellie looks deeply devastated when she says this.
"So... you were just going to die like that, without my knowing? I didn't... I didn't realize this was affecting you this much. I was being so selfish and thoughtless by just pushing you away like that... I didn't even stop to think about how this would hurt you so badly and make you want to just... I was- I was a terrible girlfriend. I didn't consider anything other than how I felt..."
"That's not your fault you tried everything I'm just messed up..."
Ellie shakes her head.
"I can't just sit here and let you blame this on yourself. I was the one who ended the relationship. And you're right, I did push you away in every way. I should've been doing my best to help you when you were going through this, that's what a girlfriend is supposed to do. I was supposed to be supporting and helping you, but I wasn't. I was- I was a bad girlfriend... so I take responsibility as well..."
"You deserve someone who is not messed up like me..."
Katie says pain in her voice.
Ellie shakes hee head and her voice starts to sound annoyed.
"Stop it. Stop talking down on yourself. You're not messed up. And as for what you said about me "deserving someone else," I... I don't want anyone else except for you. I mean it, I truly do care about you so much. No other person is on my mind. It's just you. No one else I'd rather be with."
"But you could be with so many other better people who doesn't have scars or is skinny or weak or dumb or anything like me..."
Katie says some tears stream down her cheeks.
Ellie scoffs wipes away her tears.
"Are you kidding me? I couldn't care less about the scars, or your weight, or anything that makes you different from others. That stuff doesn't matter to me one bit. All of this drama aside, I fell in love with you. Not some other person. You are who I want to be with. You said it yourself, I was the only way you could keep living, right?"
"Yes but that doesn't mean you have to stay. Sooner or later you'll leave me so..."
Katie says sad and upset.
Ellie shakes her head.
"You should know by now that I don't want to leave you. What makes you think that I will? Why do you still think that I'll leave you one day? Even now, there's literally nothing that would even make me want to leave you, like ever."
"Because who want to be with someone who is messed up and is scared to go to school or has scars all around her body and tried to kill himself multiple times."
Katie tells her.
"I don't care about any of that. I've seen what you've go through, and I've seen your scars, and I've heard you talk about how you feel. And yet, I still love you so much. I don't care who else would leave you either, because I don't want to leave you ever. And I'm sure that there are other people who care about you and will stay with you. You aren't alone, even if it feels like that. Trust me..."
Ellie replies.
"You haven't seen my scars since the break up. You know a lot can happen in a week..."
Katie says.
Ellie pauses for a moment
"Did you add any new scars...?"
"You could say that.." Katie says scared.
Ellie seems genuinely anxious now, concerned for her health.
"How many new scars did you get...?"
"I-I tried to kill meself 3 times this week.."
Katie admits scared.
Ellie's heart completely drops to here this. She seems absolutely horrified for her now and her expression becomes sad.
"I... You did that three times this week?"
Tears start too well up in her eyes.
"I... I don't understand how I didn't realize how much you were hurting..."
Ellie falls speechless for a few seconds, before she starts to sniffle and tears start to stream down her face.
"D-don't do this... it hurts too much... I already feel like a crappy girlfriend, I didn't even know you've been feeling this much pain... can you promise me that you won't do this anymore...? Please... Don't try to end your life ever again..."
"I'll try..." Katie says.
